lose 120 lbs

I am now almost 10 months out and I have lost 70lbs to date.  It has been a long road.  I still have 30 to go to get a tummy tuck.  I was at a stand still for almost 2 months.  My body has accepted my new eating habits.  I feel great and have enjoyed my new found self worth.  

I am currently separating from my partner of 19 years.  We divorced 2 years ago and still have been trying to work the relationship out.  We have decided to take a break.  Its very scary but I know that I will be okay and so will he.  

I have gone through many emotions having lost all this weight,  My self confidence has improved so much,  Its a huge change,  I am not settling in my life anymore.  

Lately I've noticed allot of us are losing our hair. I am very thankfull that mine is surgery related and not cancer like my sister in law is facing.  I had beautiful long naturally curly hair. 

When I was obese I hid behind that gorgeous head of hair.  I figured I might be fat but at least my hair looked good.  Funny Huh.  So every once in a while when I needed to get myself on track I would cut it off and make myself look at me. 

So this time I decided that I would cut my hair and donate it to locks of love before I had no more to cut.  It was a liberating experience and I am helping others.   I also understood that even if you dont have 10 inches to donate it you can send it any way and they will sell it for their cause.  This is wonderfull.  So all of you that are losing your hair.  Get it cut and mail it to them.  
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Gosh I never thought in a million years that I would be called Boss Hog.  Well that was 65lbs ago and now I think I'm more like the pig Babe!!!!

Any way the jist of this is that I stepped up as leader for the Ground Hog Challenge and our team was named the HOGS!!!  Hot Outrageous Gastric Sleeves!!!! 

This was the best thing I ever did.  I was fairly new to this site and didnt know how to use this tool in the least bit.  Now You can call me a pro.  I have learned so much from all of you this past week.  And I can manage this site like I've been here for years.  I think I'm addicted.

I enjoy reading what others have to say and posting my opinions.  I am so glad that I chose the Gastric Sleeve over the other surgerys and reading others info has confirmed I made the correct decision for me.  

During the challenge I learned allot about me.  My strengths and my downfalls.  I am not getting enough protein.  I would say 50% or less a day of the requirement.  My iron is low causing me to be goofy.  And my body has said no more weight loss for you, you are starving.  My hair is falling out big time.  Couldnt fall off my legs just the head.    So I've had to think about this plan for me and adjust wherever I can.  

I am know keeping a food diary of everything I put into my mouth.  I need that protien.  I am also taking my vitamins daily 9+ and will get some biotin for the hair loss.  I started working out again this week.  My trainer kicked my but in class this week.  Water!!! I love water.  I have no problems drinking my water.  Thank God!!! 

I am so thankful for this site.  And thankful that I stepped up as a leader and learned how to use this site.  

Years ago I attended an AA meeting in support of a friend.  There motto was Keep coming back it works if you work it!!!!!  Here lies truth for all addictions.  It works if we work it.  

Also the Serenity prayer:
God, Grant me the Serinty to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.  

My words of encouragement. 
I accept the things I cannot change, I am changing the things I can.  and my wisdom helps me know the difference.

Finally.  I know I can do this.  

I am now 5 months out and have lost 62 lbs.  I know some say this is slow weight loss for the time frame but I am happy to be losing slow.  My skin is tightening and thats good.  

This loss comes with some conflict for me though.  I own a Bakery and was a sugar addict.  I have done fairly well but I realize the temptation every time I walk through the door. 

I also was a big Resturant patronizer.  I love good food and have struggle with the emotional addiction.  So I am aware and am working on this.  I am very much in touch with me and am very careful not to let my new body go to my head,

Remember when we were young and thin and got lots of attention from our male population.  Well that hasn't happened for years and I have experienced this recently.  It felt good but I know my boundries being that I am in a committed relationship.  But it still scares me when I see others having the surgery and ending their marriages.  So I am careful not to put myself in a position that would encourage this.  I have spent 19 years trying to make my realtionship work although we are divorced we are still trying to make a go of it.  

I recently had this conversation with him and our therapist and was pleased that he wasnt jealous of my weight loss and supports me. 

My 8 year old Sam is my Baby and he is chubby.  We are working on giving him better eating habits so he doesn't wind up like his mother.  Thank God he likes vegetables.  

I have learned so much on this journey and love reading the post daily and learning from all of you.  We are on this journey together and I am so Thankfull for this web site.