well, now I am just waiting! I feel like that's all i have done is wait, all my life. since i was given the surgery date i have been such a recluse.   
 I haven't gone out or been around any family or friends. I feel like I want to hide away until I have surgery, like life doesn't begin until I can change what I hate about my self. I am in such a funk!  I want to get down to 300 or 299 before surgery.  I just want to get this whole process rolling and have the surgery.

I have been aproved by my insurance (etna) and I have a surgery date! SEPT 17th!!!! I cant belive that next fall i will be a hole new person. this is such crazy emotional ride! I am going to start getting ready for surgery.

Well its been a long wait but i have made it to my pre op doctors appointment with Dr. Todder. She is a very nice woman, she is tough dont let her looks fool you. she estimates my surgery to be in august of 09'. Thats only one month from now, wow thats alot sooner then i expected. Well now iam waiting for the approval letter from my insurance to come in the i will have a date for surgery! its hard to belive that i have been trying to have this surgery for 2 years and finally it is just around the corner.