Beginning

Apr 16, 2014

Hello. I am beginning my journey to a new me!

Last year, in May, my general practitioner recommended I look into weight loss surgery. I felt hurt and confused. I'm only 27 years old, I thought. After seeing her an entire year later, she asked if  I was ready to consider it. I hadn't lost any weight and I was feeling a lot more depressed and hopeless than the year before. So I said "Yes."

On Tuesday I went to an informational session at OSU (Ohio State University). I picked up the packet and heard about all of the different surgeries. I still don't know which one would be best for me. I have, however, ruled out the lap band after hearing horror stories. Plus, I have A LOT to lose, so it may not be the correct tool. A man in the back of the auditorium was very ill, and was falling asleep and having sleep apnea symptoms. I don't want to be that sick.

I have sleep apnea, too. I'm not good at wearing the mask. It keeps me awake and I feel more tired the next day than ever. I wish I were better at managing it... I might feel better. I also have anxiety and depression, which I am on medications for. In the past I have had a stress fracture in my foot from all of the weight I am carrying around. At times I am diagnosed with high blood pressure.

I see the complications of this weight and the ones that are in my future. Diabetes. Painful joints. Asthma. Huge risk for heart disease and cancer.

At the moment I weigh 430 lbs and am between 5'9" and 5'10" tall. I wear a 4x top and size 30/32 pants. I wear a size 13 womens shoe. Not all of those fit. I have never had a boyfriend. I feel I am too obese to fly, preventing me from visting my friends in San Francisco, New York, L.A., and Chicago. I can't sit in booths or most chairs with arms. THIS IS NO WAY TO LIVE.

Yesterday I spoke with my insurance company at length. I believe my insurance will cover the procedure. There is a 10,000 lifetime maximum for bariatric surgery. But I'm hoping the surgery will be a contracted rate and cost less than that. If it is a lot more, I may not be able to go forward.

I faxed my packet to OSU yesterday. Now I will wait and see what they say.

 

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