I am getting close to my first anniversary.  I know I have lost a TON of weight, but I can't help but feel that I wanted to have lost more by now.  I guess maybe I am too hard on myself.  It will be interesting to see how much more I can take off before the day.

So I went to my appointment and it turns out I am not crazy, it's not unusual for a bari patient to have trouble with these pills.  I now have a new doc and a scrip for liquid meds.  Thank GOD!

Finally, I have an appointment tomorrow with a new Psychiatrist.  Hopefully this one won't tell me it's all in my head.  I don't know what else I can do if that happens.  I have been so low that my husband actually wanted to take me to the hospital a couple of times this week.  I was really resistant.  I live in a small town and if that got out, I hate to think abou what life would be like here.

I'm thinking I'm just not going to get there.  No matter what I do, I can't get the scale to move.  I am super depressed about it.  This scale just WILL NOT move.  I don't know what I'm doing wrong.  I have weighed every meal.  I have gone back to two protein shakes a day.  I'm taking all my vitamins and working out.  Apparently I am doomed to still be fat no matter what.

I saw the psychologist in the surgeons office today.  He told me that no, this is not in my head.  It is perfectly reasonable that the pill might be irritating my pouch.  I am going to a different psychiatrist that has some idea what to do with a bariatric patient next Wednesday.  Wish me luck.  If one more person asks me if I took the pill with enough water I swear . . . .