Barb H.

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Wow, this journey has been just as interesting as it was the first time.  I happened to mention that I'm planning revision surgery to a friend recently who later told me that she didn't think I should do surgery.  I should deal with the emotional issues that are causing me to overeat or have too low of a metabolism.  I went into a funk for about 3 days thinking that I was a piece of shit and a failure, then I remembered who I was doing this for.  Me.  I have recommitted to the surgery.  Talking to Jacquie helped a great deal, too.  She suggested that I just don't talk about it to anyone, which is sage advice.  It felt yucky going through it but it helped me realize what's important to me.  

At this point, Castle has submitted the pre-auth to BCBS to get their decline, then they will submit to AlaskaCare.  Once that part gets approved, I'll go to Oahu for another physical therapy and psych eval.  It's basically starting over.  There will also be a peer support group starting up soon, but Jacquie said I can crash her's as well.  I feel really strongly that this will help me a great deal in staying focused, providing the support I'll need to stay on task and reprogram my thinking and patterns.