scrubsgirl
finally ready
Sep 30, 2014
Well here it is september 30th 2014 and I am finally doing what I set out to do in 2009. I had to reach my total rock bottom before I could change my whole life.I have been working with sandford weight loss center for 3 months now and am going on the 3rd of october for my final dietary and phsyc visits as well as my surgeon visit then 2 more counseling sessions with my insurance health partners and I am clear for surgery as of October 28th 2014. I am really getting excited and nervous about it, but am determined to do this.I think the hardest hurdle has been giving up smoking, have had to go on chantix with help for that and a lot of prayer and faith. After 29 years of smoking its been the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I will never go back only forward cause I want my life back.A life without being a shut in my house in a powerchair, and o2 afraid to go out cause everyone stares. I want to go camping and go out places with my husband and live the life I should have at 46, not what Ive created for myself in this house.I live in Roseau Minnesota and really want to experience everything there is to do in area,and out of my area.I also want to see my grandchildren grow up,and I have to be healthy to do that.My bmi right now is 72 and I am miserable everyday.I don't sleep well cause of the apnea,dont move around well cause my knees and joints cant carry my weight,never comfortable with the lymphadema in my legs swelling to tree size proportions,plus the diabetes type 2 ,and the skin fold infections cause it never gets to breath.All of thee things will be gone if I get healthy and my life can move on it will be a something I never take for granted again not one day.
