- Username: SGRhose1922
- Location: Ypsilanti, MI, USA
- Member Since: 4/26/2007
- BMI: 48.5
- Post Op
- Surgery Type: RNY (04/14/08)
- Surgeon: Kerry Kole, D.O.
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Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God....And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people the permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
Nearly 4 Months Out-Down 71 Pounds on August 10, 2008 4:43 pm
August 10, 2008
I've been horrible about updating, but here I am. I am down 71 pounds and it will be 4 months out for me as of 8/14. I'm feeling better, except for fatigue every now and then. My back and knees don't hurt anymore, and I am feeling better about myself. I am able to tolerate more foods and eat a tad bit more. I am able to take vitamins that are not chewable, which is major for me. The chewables were making me sick. I still can't tolerate protein shakes, but I try to get at least 70 grams in a day. It is a daily goal that I work at continuously.
My hair is shedding, but for now it isn't very noticable. I have thick hair, so that helps. However, I will more than likely go ahead and get it cut. I think I'll do that when I'm down 100lbs, which is only 29 lbs away. Are you kidding me? I've never lost more than 60 lobs in my whole life, so I've already surpassed that. It is amazing, and I thank God for allowing me to get RNY, as I would be 370 lbs by now if I hadn't have gotten it.
I notice that I clean the house more and read more. I am finding things to do to fill the time besides eating. I'm enjoying it, and I am spending more time in prayer and meditation with the Lord. God is an awesome wonder!
Exercise? Well, I need to step this up a lot. I'm dusting off my bike and I will strt riding it and then walking. I don't know why the motivation was lacking. I can't make any excuses. I just need to go out there and move it.
I've gone from a size 30/32 to a 18/20 top and 22/24 bottom. I'm excited about all that is happening. It has been a ride with ups and downs, but it is wonderful to not feel like food is controlling my every waking moment. That storm is over. My new challenge is to use this tool to get the weight off and develop new habits. With God's help, I will do it.
Until next time, be blessed and keep the faith.
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7 Weeks out...Down 40 pounds! on June 4, 2008 6:38 pm
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Hello family! I finally got my pre-op and post-op pics uploaded. It does help to see the pics. It seems that I can tend to get a bit impatient with how the weight is coming off. However, I know that this is a journey and not a race. The weight will come off. Now I have to resolve the fact that I need to start exerciing on a regular basis and make it a part of my lifestyle. I also have to keep working on getting in all of my protein and water every day. I also have to take my time when I'm eating and chew more slowly. It is a learning process.
I'm glad that I had the surgery and I know that each day it will continue to get better. I'm grateful everyday that I was blessed to be able to have this new beginning.
Until later, God Bless all of you and keep the faith!
Nikki
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1 Month Out....Down 30 Pounds! on May 15, 2008 4:31 am
Greetings all!
Well, it has been a month since my surgery and I'm down 30 pounds. It has been a learning experience and I am continuing to learn how to eat, what my pouch will tolerate, and still struggling to get all of my protein in daily. Through it all, I do not regret having the surgery. I know that it was a matter of life and death and I had to take a drastic measure to get control of my life. I'm back to work now and I do get tired, but I am feeling better everyday. I know that once I'm able to get in all of my protein, it will give me more energy.
I will post pics soon, once my hubby helps me out with the digital camera.
Blessings to all.
Nikki
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I'm Home...Praise God, I made it!!!! on April 17, 2008 1:23 pm
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Hello OH Family! Praise God, I made it through the surgery and I am home. I actually had surgery on Monday, 4/14 and went home on Tuesday night, 4/15. I am doing better today. Each day it does get a little better. I have had really bad gas pains, but the more I move and walk, the better that gets. Also, the gas-x really helps. The challenge for me has also been getting a good nights sleep. I don't have a recliner, so my flat bed has not been kind to me.
Okay, on surgery day.....we got to the hospital and after I signed in, they pretty much got me back to the pre-op prep area right away. They made me pee in a cup to do a pregnancy test. After that, I changed into the lovely hospital robe and they started the IV. I had a great nurse and she actually made it not so bad. (I'm a needle wimp) After that, my mother and godmom came to wish me well and I started crying out of the blue. I guess it was the nerves starting to get to me. However, when my husband came in, he was able to calm me down, make me laugh, and I felt more at ease. I stayed in the pre-op waiting area about an hour, because they were running a bit behind in the OR and I had to wait my turn. My surgeon, Dr. Kole, was great and he came and talked to me and my hubby. I felt a calmness over myself, and I knew that I'd picked the right surgeon and that I was in good hands. I also had a lot of people praying for me, so I knew that I was covered. Well, I only remember the anesthesiologist telling me that he was giving me something to make me a little relaxed. That is all that I remember. When I woke up, they were wrapping a binder around me and telling me that I did great. The first thing that came to my mind was, thank you Jesus for allowing me to make it through with no complications. I was in some discomfort, but it was bearable. It took them a few minutes to get my medicine pump for me to push hooked up, but once they did that, I just pushed it when I needed it and I slept a lot. I did get some ice chips periodically. My hubby came and kissed me and my mom ang godmom did as well. I was on a regular floor and all was well. They took the cathedar out on Tuesday morning and it was painful getting in and out of the bed to pee. My stomach muscles are very sore...ouchie! However, that is to be expected, so I am trying not to be a crybaby about it. I am getting acquainted with my new pouch. "Pouchie" has already let me know that he only likes teenie, tiny sips at a time. If not, he growls and roars at me. LOL I'm sipping on protein shakes made with water, chicken broth, crystal lite, water, and sugar free popsicles. My mom is a nurse, and it has been such a blessing to have her around. She and my dad are keeping my 3 yr old son for me and she is just my private duty nurse. My hubby works and is a student, but when he gets home, he takes care of me too. It is a blessing to have so much support. I am so blessed through it all. I am sore, my back aches a bit, but you know....I will keep the complaints down to a minimum. God has blessed my dream to become a reality and guess what????? I am officially on the LOSER'S BENCH!!!!!
Thank you to everyone who has prayed for me and wished me well. Heaven was flooded with prayers and well wishes on my behalf and I am grateful.
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SURGERY IS TOMORROW!!!! on April 13, 2008 1:23 pm
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Wow!!! As I sip on my chicken broth and crystal lite, it is hard to believe that my surgery is tomorrow. It is really going to happen to me. I just give God so much glory and I praise Him for all that He has done to make this all possible. I have peace on the inside that only God could give me. I am doing this for my health and well being. I will make it!!!This 3 day liquid diet has not been easy, but I won't complain. So many had to do it much longer than 3 days. There is no turning back. My whole life is about to change. I know that it will be a challenge, but I am up for it. To God be the Glory, for the things He has done!!!!
I will update the board as soon as I am able. Thank everyone for the support, love, and prayers. I'll see you on the loser's bench.
Blessings, Nikki
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Greetings! I've been overweight most of my life. After experiencing some devastating things in my childhood, I began to turn to food as my solace. Food became my friend that didn't talk back to me, and the "sneak-eating" began at the age of 9. By the time I was 12 years old and in the 6th grade, I was 212 lbs. Wow! It is hard to believe that after all of these years, I'm still battling the same food issues. I am now 35 years old and 327 pounds. I can't believe I just typed those numbers, but I have to face it in order to begin to heal and get my life back. I'm tired of feeling like I'm 50. I'm tired of being exhausted, my knee hurts, my joints hurt, my back hurts, I don't have the energy to play with my 3 year old son. Shopping isn't even fun anymore, because my lower back aches before I can even get going in the stores. Most of all, I know that I'm not living my life to the fullest due to the weight. It is a barrier for me. It is like having mud in my wings.
I am hopeful and have faith that God has brought me this far for a reason. This is my year to begin again. I accept it and receive it. This will be the year that I am victorious over being super morbidly obese. Let the journey begin.....
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