There are quite a few studies out there linking poor sleep habits with increased weight gain.  I have the most atrocious sleep habits and, although I can't blame my weight on that, I can't help but wonder the role it has played.  In addition to insomnia and sleep apnea, I have a horrible habit of not going to bed until I am absolutely, beyond comprehension, exhausted.  Seriously, I wait until I am falling asleep in front of the TV or computer before I finally take out my contacts and head to bed.  Even then, I find myself needing to play a few games of solitaire on my iphone before I can fall asleep.  Usually this is about 2 am. 

Unfortunately, these horrible sleep habits don't work well for someone with a full time job.  Thankfully my job is pretty flexible, but it still makes things difficult.  The later I go to sleep, the later I sleep in.  In the mornings, I just don't want to get up.  Even after my 8 hours of sleep, I still want to stay in bed.  

Since my RNY, it has only gotten worse.  My average bedtime is now 2am but sometimes as late as 4am.  I never want to get out of bed in the morning.  I haven't had so many "low energy" days like many post-op RNY-ers but I definitely don't want to get out of bed.  Usually when I leave the house I feel a lot better...but getting to that point: showering, putting makeup on, getting dressed, etc is so exhausting.  I wonder if this has anything to do with the RNY?  

I know part of this is probably a bit of depression.  Lately I haven't felt satisfied with many areas of my life.  My marriage is so-so, my job is so-so...I guess those are the two biggest parts of my life.  I just don't feel like I have that much else going on.  

But I just don't think this sleep thing is all depression...so why the hell can't I make myself go to sleep at night???  I worry that this may, in part, be just another sabateur in my weight loss process.