Today marks the 29th day since my surgery.  I am definitely having another low energy day but managed to get quite a bit of work done from home.  This evening, I dragged myself and the foster pup out of the house and went and watched the hubby play softball.  It was nice to get out of the house and actually made me feel way better!  We even got a little exercise (not much) by walking around the field. 

Tomorrow, I am heading up north to my brother's land (the future site of his house) and camping for the weekend with my dad and mom.  The hubby has grad school orientation so although I will miss him, he's not coming.  I think I'm moreso disappointed because it's the weekend before our anniversary (Monday it will be two years for us) and he hasn't said a word about it. 

As for our anniversary, I just have this feeling that come Monday I am going to be majorly disappointed in him because he'll either 1- forget, 2- wait until the last minute and buy me some crappy chocolate bar I can't eat or 3-have to play kickball that night and totally blow it off.  I know I should give him more credit than that but I'm disappointed enough that he hasn't even mentioned it.  I, on the other hand, spent $130 for something I know he really wants and was planning to do something sweet like make dinner, leave him sweet notes or other romantic things I have been mulling over.  It has been kind of a rough go for us lately and I just want so hard for him to TRY at our relationship and haven't seen much true effort from him lately.  It's all half ass with a grumble.  Even when he tries to do something nice, it's covered by a smart ass comment or a derogatory remark.  But I know I should have more faith in him...I am just struggling with it.  ..ugh...I digress.  This isn't a relationship blog so I'll stop now. 

Back to camping.  So I think this weekend will be a lot easier than last weekend.  One because I will be with people who are very sympathetic to the cause.  My parents both had WLS surgery and understand what I am going through.  My brother and his wife are super cool about it, too.  And we won't be eating out.  I'm making up some egg salad and chicken salad tonight along with some beef jerky and greek yogurt and other snacks so I'll have plenty to snack on.  I'm even going to try to bring my magic bullet and some milk so I can have my protein shakes.  Hopefully it will be a camping success. 

Well, off to bed.  It's going to be a long day tomorrow and a lot of driving up north!

Whew...what a weekend!  Friday after work my husband and another couple packed up the car and headed 5 hours south to Iowa for the wedding of a friend.  My hubby is a bit of a crumugeon- he's just not a happy go lucky person in general- and was exceptionally so on the way down.  I'm not sure if he was pissed about driving or what but he was just a bear!  When we got into Iowa City, we decided to grab a bite to eat first.  Hubby wanted the BBQ place and everyone else was neutral.  I mentioned that the BBQ place wouldnt likely have anything I could eat so my friend said "let's just go to Perkins".  Upon hearing my hubby's groan, I jumped in and said, "No, it's fine, I'll find something to eat there."  After all, he had just driven the entire 5 hours (I won't mention the road rage on the way, but we made it safely). 

When we got to the restaurant, it was just as I suspected.  They had a lot of meat on the menu, gigantic portions and no soup or healthy food on the menu.  Upon seeing this, I suggested to the hubby that I just eat a few bites off his plate.  His immediate reaction was to get angry and huffy about it saying "I want my OWN meal."  At this point, I just wanted to cry.  My friend jumped in and said, "Shan, you can eat some of my meal!" which made hubby feel guilty and he said "well if you are going to eat off my plate you need to put the order in while I go to the bathroom."  I kind of wanted to cry.  Shouldn't he WANT to help me now?  Instead of put up barriers?  In the end, I ended up eating some pulled pork off his plate and some sausage off my friends.  A few bites and I was done.  It would have been so much easier if we could have avoided the whole situation, though. 

Hubby's behavior wasn't that supportive the rest of the weekend, either.  When talking about the state fair, he asked my friends if anyone wanted to go with him because he didn't want to be stuck with someone who couldn't try the food with him.  He was a crab the entire ride home.  And he kept trying to feed me bites of crap.  I admit I did take a nibble (microscopic piece) off his cake.  It was delicious and I didn't have any dumping.  But I just feel like crap about it all.  It was hard enough having to be the "eating outcast" all weekend.  Hell, we even went to a buffet that had one option:  the buffet.  Thankfully the waitress took pity on me and brought me chicken noodle soup. 

After arriving home, we went over to my sister in laws to pick up the dogs.  She had made us dinner so we were obliged to stay.  It was very nice of her, but she made stir fry with bell peppers, white rice and steak.  Three things I'm not allowed to eat.  Fish, chicken and turkey went down well so I figured I might as well try the steak.  The first few bites went down ok but the second few gave me that "stuck" feeling and I ended up experiencing my first case of the "foamies".  The dogs benefited from the rest of my steak. 

After getting home again, I finally got to open my new package from Vitalady!  Finally, a food related highlight instead of a lowlight!  My vitamins, Oh Yeah bars and sugar free syrup had arrived!  I'm so excited!  I got iron, D3 and, most importantly, calcium!  I am SO sick of trying to choke down 10 citrical petites every day (they make me want to vomit) so instead ordered the Bariatric Advantage lozenges.  Now, when I think lozenge, I think hard candy so I was surprised to see that they are actually chewables.  They are cinnamon flavored, though, so I think I can handle it.  When I first read the label I thought I had to take three at a time and I wanted to cry.  Upon closer observation, though, I need three a DAY!  Whew!  

So...although I had a great time hanging out with my friends this weekend, the food was a bit of an issue.  I MISSED it so much.  Watching everyone else eat cinnamon rolls, cake, fried chicken, mashed potatoes, candy bars, and just about everything I love was tough.  I miss food so much!  And as I learned this weekend, it's so easy to sneak a nibble here and there or something I'm not sure if I should be having.  No wonder people fail at this.  *sigh*