I found out on 8/13/09 that my insurance has approved my surgery.  I have an appointment with Dr. Weaver coming up.  I am excited about it all.  I am also very scared.  I know this is what I need and want.  But my fear of surgery is really there.  I know this  something I really need.

My husband and I are going to Turkey soon and the approval makes my trip better.  This is the last time I will have to deal with the seatbelts on airplanes.  Airplanes are my most embarrassing moments in my life.   However the trip brings back other memories such as the fact I found out I was pregnant. the last time I went.  

My feelings today are mixed.  I wish everything was TODAY.  Unfortunately life doesn't work that way.  I have also been stressed trying to get ready for our trip.  I have really been wanting to smoke.  I haven't had a cigarette since June 12th.  My doctor will not perform surgery if I do.  But it has really been tempting.