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I am 24 years old and have been diagnosed with PCOS for 6 months now. I am tired of the pain and the horrible effects it has had on my life and health, including weight gain. I am just looking for the best route to accomplish my goals.
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My Story Since I was about 12 or 13 years old, I have been a bit on the chunky side. I was a curvy girl who loved food. There was nothing better to me than trying something new to eat, something shocking, something amazing, and sometimes something scary. For this reason, I was never small. But I was always very althetic and active. I played sports year round, loved working out daily and was pretty darn good at most athletics I attempted. When I was about 17-18, I started to binge eat. It was a reaction to something tramatic that happened in my life, but for the longest time I did not know that I was doing anything wrong. I just thought I had a healthy appetite. As long as I didn't throw up, I didn't have an eating disorder. But I should have known something was wrong when I started to do my binges in secret. In the middle of the night when everyone else was in bed. And the binges were getting bigger and bigger. After a while, I started to black out during binges. I remember the time preparing for the binge and I remember the feeling of sickness after the binge, but I couldn't remember the time during the binge. I completely lost a chunk of my day. My rude awakening came when I was sitting in psych class one afternoon. The professor was going over eating disorders. One of the disorders they discussed was called Binge Eating Disorder. And to my shock, I fit every single one of the criteria. After class, I went to my professor and admitted that I had a problem. He refered me to a psychologist, and from there I started the road to recovery. Any eating disorder is much like any other addiction in life. It will haunt me the rest of my days. But it is simply a matter of if I give in or not. After 8 years of binging, and 4 years of knowing I had a problem, I am doing much better today. I am down to about 1-2 binges a month, and every time it gets just a little bit easier to say no. But putting on the amount of weight that I have gained over the years is very daunting. I have tried all sorts of diets, excercises and so forth. And nothing seems to work. I know it isn't supposed to be easy, but when you are carrying about almost 200lbs of extra weight that you shouldn't have, even walking on a treadmill can drain your energy for the rest of the day. And lets on even discuss the energy it takes to get to the gym in the first place! I am not making excuses for myself. I don't want to be labeled as one of those whiners. But I have tried my damndest and I know that weight loss surgery would help me even more to make the corrections I need to make to my life and to keep me on the right track. It would kind of be like a boost up the steps. A helping hand. And thats what I am looking for. |
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