I weighed myself this morning and was shocked that I lost 1/2 a pound. I have *no* idea how that happened. (See last post for more information.) I'm glad that I didn't gain anything, but I hope this doesn't reinforce my bad habits of the past week.

I got my first fill on Tuesday, 9/30. The NP put 2 mL of saline into my empty band. It's kind of funny -- I'm still only half of where I was after surgery. I don't mind, though. I'd rather go slow than have problems again. Unfortunately, I don't have any restriction at all right now. I'm still in Bandster Hell. The only difference I've noticed is that I burp a few times a day, which is unusual for me. I have an appointment on 10/21 for my next fill.

I'm sad to report that I haven't been eating very well this week. My portions have grown larger because I'm just as hungry as I was before surgery. I'm not eating as much as I did back then, but I'm eating more than I should. Know what I mean? And this weekend, I was surrounded by sweets at work. I gave in and had a cupcake on Friday, a donut on Saturday, and a piece of cake on Sunday. Not good. I haven't weighed myself, but I'm sure that I haven't lost anything. I might have even gained a pound or two. I'll see what the damage is tomorrow morning.

My challenge for this week is to renew my will power. I need to start exercising and dieting again. I've decided not to beat myself up for the past week, but to try to learn from the experience and accept it as part of the ebb and flow of this journey.

For about 2 weeks, I've been bouncing up and down between 239 and 241. This morning, got on the scale and it read 237! I'm really surprised. I'm going out to dinner with friends tonight and tomorrow night, so we'll see if it lasts...

I'm in a bit of a slump. The scale is still going up and down, I'm not exercising regularly, and I'm not making the best food choices. I'm not discouraged, though. I think I just needed a break from the dramatic changes I've gone through during the past 2 months. The good news is that I haven't gained any weight and my food choices are still better than they were pre-op. I know that I will get back on track next week when I get a small fill. I see this phase as part of the process. After all, I'm in this for the long haul. I don't expect to lose 50 lbs overnight.