- Username: Shenikwa
- Location: Thornton, CO, USA
- Member Since: 1/5/2006
- BMI: 30.6
- Post Op
- Surgery Type: RNY (01/22/07)
- Surgeon: Thomas R Brown
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Surgeon TestimonialThomas R BrownDr. Brown has a wiry sense of humor, but is a man who is talented and understands the plight of the obese person to do this surgery. His skills as a surgeon tho, are out of this world! His staff is friendly knowledgable and makes you feel comfortable. Future patients should know you are in good hands. He and his staff work closely, and you will be taken care of. I would rate Dr. Brown and his staff a 10 out of a 10. Very caring, kind and honest. Has a great surgerical competence ad wonderful bedside manner. He will take care of you! |
Every day is a challenge on January 29, 2007 11:59 pm
So, everyone is told that after the surgery you will have to make better food choices. You will have to be concious of every bite that goes in your mouth. Lemme tell y'all it's hard to be on your game like that ALL the time. But I have been giving it my all. Working out hard on the treadmill, I don't think it's fair to yourself to go through this surgery and not work out! And really to me just plain silly. If your doc says you can, work out!! Anyway, I have been working hard to get all my protein in. No problem with the water. Getting in about 64 oz a day. I got this little water bottle by rubbermaid that has a pull top and lets through the perfect sip!
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Besides the struggling with the food thing, I am doing well. Staying in prayer and really trying to do Winnie the Pouch (my pouch's new name!) justice. I really haven't cheated well except for a peice of turkey and a hot pepper (ohhhhhh that was the dumbest move EVER!!!!) I love spicy stuff, but its going to have to wait until I get healed up more.
I journal every night before I go to bed. There are some things that I feel are private for me and sometimes not about WLS. But have you noticed that it takes over your life??? Protein, water, carbs, exercise, how does my pouch feel? Man, mention that to a WLS patient and you can talk for days!!! Not to mention the gas and smell.... Whew! I wonder if my husband wants a divorce or a different bedroom at least. Heheheheee...
Well I decided to go back to work early. I go back this saturday (I'm a dispatcher), and I go back part time. I'm excited about it. I NEED to get out of this house! Thank God for small miracles. :-)
See you guys soon!
1st hard day on January 28, 2007 7:31 pm
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So I was afraid to post this, but I felt like I should since I know I'll come back and read this and shake my head at me.
But this surgery is not as easy as I thought it was going to be. I thought I dealt with the head hunger issues, but I really didn't. They come up again and again and again. There are so many conflicting emotions going through my head. I know I never want to be able to eat like I did before, but MAN do I want to eat like I did before. See??? Isn't that nuts. But here is the thing, so many of us have this surgery and feel this way afterwards. Depressed. I think it's normal from all that I have heard.
When I got home, I felt great. A couple of days passed and I felt good. Then BAM yesterday was HORRIBLE... I felt like a monster. I really beat myself up. But you know, I realize that you have to have support, and you have to have faith. God is still a miracle provider. He still looks after me. I know He loves me just from getting me through yesterday. I feel so much better today.
I just never thought I would have rough days.... No one really talks too much about them in the beginning. How hard it is to get used to this little pouch. Everything is new. And the liquid diet sucks! LOL. But I'm good, and I know this too will pass like everything else.
Be well OH family.
295 - 280 15 lbs down
Sitting on the loser's bench on January 24, 2007 9:22 pm
So I'm back! Praise God all went ok and there were no problems. As a matter of fact, the Dr commented on how well I did during the liquid diet stage, and how much easier it made his job. So here I sit.... I wondered if I even had the surgery until I threw up from drinking too much and got my 1st taste of dumping syndrome from having accidental sugar. NOW that that's done, I can move on and do what I'm supposed to. I now just am waiting. I got on the treadmill 2x's today after I got home just to walk a bit. Feeling good. Still trying to get the gas outta my system. I have to walk it out, and boy can it hurt!
But I feel good overall, so let the losing begin! Weight for check in on surgery date 295. Weight at home 2 days later 291.
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The night before... on January 21, 2007 12:23 pm
So I've gone through the liquid diet again, have done all that I can do. Tomorrow is the day. God is certainly good, and I know that I can count on His love and protection for tomorrow.
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We have another snow storm coming in again today and tomorrow. Today we are supposed to get another 3-5 inches with snow and blowing snow. I am a bit concerned that the surgery might be cancelled, but a friend of mine who had her surgery right before the big blizzard a couple of weeks ago, said the surgeon came in and saw her during that time. I trust Dr. Brown not to let me down and make it safely to the hospital, both him and his crew!
I have to say that I feel a bit nervous. Scared actually. I went through a period where I was wondering even if this is something I should do. But I realized that I no longer want to live my life like this. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING FAT!!!!! Man it feels like a weight off my shoulders to get that out there. I think for myself, I always had to play it off like it didn't bother me, like all was ok. You know the dressing nice, being nice, looking good and all that stuff. So I'm sick of playing that role and I just want to be good in my own skin. To feel good and sexy and all the things that I feel inside. I want to be able to close my eyes and see myself and open my eyes and see the same person that I saw in my eyes.
Praise God for my husband. Throughout this, he has been nothing short of a blessing and I know that this is not just for me or about me, but for us. I want to grow old with him. To spend the rest of my years on this earth as his wife and love him. The 4 years we have been together have been a joy and I am so happy that he is in my life. I think also that if I was free, that I might not make the right decision concerning men. As a fat chick, I sometimes just wanted to be loved, so I put up with dude's mess so I could feel what I thought was love. When I put my fate in God's hands He delivered me Jason. And with him, I am whole.
So back to the surgery thing. I am still feeling a little bit like I'm gonna miss the foods that I loved. But being healthy and looking good mean so much more to me. I know that if I play my cards right, the next six months I can really pump it out. I mean, I got workout books, we brought a treadmill (that I have been using!), and also some weights. Nothing is going to stand in my way, because I believe that I am doing this for all the right reasons. God, myself and my husband. I truly believe that the Lord did not mean for us to be fat. He meant for us to live good, productive lives. I want to do that for Him. To have the energy to get out there and be!
So in closing here are some of the things that I want to experience and I will check them off when I complete them!
1. Fit into a size 10 or smaller
2. Be in onederland!
3. Sit with my legs crossed comfortably
4. Fly in an airplane
5. Sit in a stadium seat without squeezing in it
6. Have skinny sex
7. Work out 5-6 days a week
8. Have a baby
9. Sit in a chair and have room on the sides
10. Wear high heels again
11. Wear a short skirt
12. Have my husband pick me up
13. Make it to or close to my goal weight of 135#
14. Run a 1/2 marathon
15. Take nature walks
16. Go camping again
17. Have a normal BMI
18. Get into a cute swimsuit
19. Be able to walk for long distances
20. Be able to wear sexy lingerie
So that is it. For now anyway... See you all on the loser's side!
Come Monday... on January 19, 2007 10:04 am
It'll be alright... I hope again. I pray again. So today is the 1st day of the liquid diet again... I seem to be having all of these agains, before even getting the surgery. It's so frustrating. I watch others, read about others and feel like I'm stuck in this trap. Some people are doing great, some are taking advantange of their pouch to do what they want. I just want to have this surgery so I can worry about me.
I do believe that my re-birth will be on Monday the 22nd this time. Hopefully, the Dr. doesnt go on a drinking binge and have a hangover on Monday! LOL
So last night I kinda had a get what you want meal(s), and felt just horrible. I was just way too full. I thought to myself, I am so happy that I finally was going to have this surgery and the over eating would be controlled....at least for a while until I can control it.
I never been a big sweets person. I am a big portions person. I love good food. So I've been really honing in on my servings. I fail a lot, just because I sometimes forget what I'm planning for, or just zone out with the food. God pray I don't do that when I'm post-op. Ohhhhh I've read stories...
So we also have this thing at work, it's a part of our wellness program. I have to tell you that my job is awesome, they really try and work to get us healthy. You have to do 5 different segments a day. And you can do them more than once. And each one gives you a point. You team up with others and everyone does it and the team with the most points win! I am a team leader of a group and another girl I work with is a team leader. The other girl is a WLS patient also and 5 months out.
Keep your fingers and toes crossed for me, because somehow all the people who work out ended up on her team, and all the people who don't ended up on mine! LOL So I work out 5 x's a week now, and seems like a lot of people on my team are taking this seriously. So hopefully we can kick some butt!!!! Or at least kick our own and really prove how awesome we are...
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