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This week has to be the toughest week of my life.  I lost my friend of course as you all know.  My kitty got sick the same day I found out about my girlfriend.  She had acute renal failure which was her kidneys.  My poor baby was wasting away in front of me.  So Wednsday, I had to help her cross over and Thursday my girlfriend was buried.  Ohhhh what a horrible thing to go through, and yet I have to find another friend to comfort me because food cannot be there like it used to.  I thought not having it there was easy, but then when tough times came, I couldn't eat them away with 'comfort' food. 

You never realize how much the surgery changes your life until you go through a bad point.  Losing weight, looking and feeling better, eating healthier are all easy points until the grief comes and you cannot turn to the fatty, unnatural stuff.  And let me just tell you, I've tried.  It was horrible.  I still dump from sugar, milk and high fat.  I'm not brave enough to try sugar (and I hope I never am!), but the high fat?  Oh yeah... and boy did I pay for it.

So I've learned to turn to the ultimate friend, Jesus Christ.  Seeing all of this death this week had made me realize that life is sooooo short.  So fleeting.  So love your family, love your pets, and love yourself most of all.  Remember that you are all you got, and those of us on here have forgotten us a long time ago in search of something better, something new.  Yes WLS changing your life.  It can change your outlook for better or for worse, but it will NEVER change you.  Not who you are deep down inside.  God loves you and it doesn't matter if you are fat, slim healthy or sickly.  All He wants is to love you back.

Thanks for being patient with me OH family.  To those of you who have read this and reminded me gently (and not so gently!) to begin to blog again, I thank you.  I didn't realize how much I missed my friends and family here.  May God bless your journey.  May you know nothing but peace and love through this if you have WLS or trying other methods to lose weight.  And even though we don't know each other personally, know that I pray for all who read this. 

Be well OH family

Has passed away from this surgery.  I found out late last night that she died from the complications.  She leaves behind 4 kids and a husband.  Man,  I tell you what... it brings home the fact that this is a dangerous surgery that we all here have survivied through and sometimes people don't. 

My heart hurts for her and her family now.  I spent the 1st part of the night crying for her, and myself.  I felt guilty because she saw my success and felt like it would be her own too.  She had a bowel obstruction, and just never recovered from it.  Just know how serious this can be.  Take the risks for what they are.  Even though she is the rarity, I hate to lose her because she was an awesome friend, mom and wife.  God bless her family and other friends.  Please keep those who have passed in your prayers, and hopefully the gov't will see what we do to ourselves to be healthy and help us continue to do so without it being so doggone expensive and live-changing. 

I hope that my thoughts come through clear on this and I hope that those of you who are thinking about this surgery think clearly about what you are doing.  Those of us who have survivied this, praise God and continue to take care of yourself. 

Be well OH family

Hello OH family.  It again has been a long time since I have blogged, but I wanted to give a quick update on what's been going on.  God has certainly blessed this girl with this surgery.  I am at 189 as of this morning, which means that I have lost a total of 110 lbs since the date of surgery and a whole lot since before then.  I praise Him for the blessing of this surgery and such great profiles that I read on here that motivated me both good and bad.

For those of you who are new to this and just wondering if this is for you, know that it is such a personal decision one that you will have to make on your own.  But reading the profiles of those of us who have gone down this journey really help.  Even though I am bad at updating mine, I still read my favorites out there!

I have to say that it is a little scary that 6 months out I can eat more .  It's getting to the point where I can have a 'normal' meal.  So I started to measure my food now strictly and making sure that I am eating healthy and getting the protein that I need in.  I am continuing to lose weight, excercising and pretty much being a good girl.  It really helps too because I am at the point now where most people are a year out.  Lord knows though that my body is crying for plastic surgery!  the excess skin is crazy to me.  I think I would be in a 10 for sure if I got all the skin cut off.  But my main priority for having WLS was to have a baby.  What is the use of having plastic surgery to jack my tummy tuck up with a baby?  My most important job is to be a mom.  Being a MILF is 2nd!  LOL  Actually it's really nice the attention that I get from my hubby who thinks that I am SMOKING hot now.  I have to concur, I am pretty doggone cute.  But I also believe that just cause I was fat didn't mean I wasn't fine too!  It's just a lot easier to believe now.  Men react completly different which trips my husband out.  He gets a little insecure, but I make a point to tell him that God made a plan for us.  My plan was to be his wife, and only the Lord can take that away.  There is no one else out there for me.  He was the one that loved me at 317 lbs.  He gets the benefit of loving me smaller.

Other than that, I got a new job with another police department in dispatch as a supervisor.  It's a lot of hard work with a few people who refuse to convert to the new and better way of business.  But I think that you cannot be onery and be a dispatcher at the same time. 

 I will sure try and post some new pics as the time has gone by.  I hope that everyone is well and my love and best wishes to my friends and may God continue to bless and light each one of your steps.  Be well OH family!