This week has to be the toughest week of my life. I lost my friend of course as you all know. My kitty got sick the same day I found out about my girlfriend. She had acute renal failure which was her kidneys. My poor baby was wasting away in front of me. So Wednsday, I had to help her cross over and Thursday my girlfriend was buried. Ohhhh what a horrible thing to go through, and yet I have to find another friend to comfort me because food cannot be there like it used to. I thought not having it there was easy, but then when tough times came, I couldn't eat them away with 'comfort' food.
You never realize how much the surgery changes your life until you go through a bad point. Losing weight, looking and feeling better, eating healthier are all easy points until the grief comes and you cannot turn to the fatty, unnatural stuff. And let me just tell you, I've tried. It was horrible. I still dump from sugar, milk and high fat. I'm not brave enough to try sugar (and I hope I never am!), but the high fat? Oh yeah... and boy did I pay for it.
So I've learned to turn to the ultimate friend, Jesus Christ. Seeing all of this death this week had made me realize that life is sooooo short. So fleeting. So love your family, love your pets, and love yourself most of all. Remember that you are all you got, and those of us on here have forgotten us a long time ago in search of something better, something new. Yes WLS changing your life. It can change your outlook for better or for worse, but it will NEVER change you. Not who you are deep down inside. God loves you and it doesn't matter if you are fat, slim healthy or sickly. All He wants is to love you back.
Thanks for being patient with me OH family. To those of you who have read this and reminded me gently (and not so gently!) to begin to blog again, I thank you. I didn't realize how much I missed my friends and family here. May God bless your journey. May you know nothing but peace and love through this if you have WLS or trying other methods to lose weight. And even though we don't know each other personally, know that I pray for all who read this.
Be well OH family