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So... I have found hot tamales.  And boy oh boy have they found me!  I have found that I love those things and they don't bother my pouch at all.  So guess who's been have a box (ok, sometimes 2) boxes a day???  Who has gained 3 lbs in 3 days?  Ding, ding, ding!  Yep me.  Boy that sucks!  So I've cut back.  Actually I cut them out.  Working in a dispatch center where my employees are always making 'food' runs is soooo hard to say no!  But last night I did.  Oh my goodness was that crazy.  And HARD!  When something bad works oh so good with your pouch you become obsessed with it.  I miss candy and sweets.  So I think I just went way too far with it.  I think that I just need to grasp some sort of control here and remember why and where I cam from.

Let me just tell you now that I refuse to go back to fat life.  I really cannot even fathom it now.  It hurts me to imagine that I could do that.  So you know, eating this bad stuff, beating myself up and such I have such body morphing problems.  I see my skin (eewww it's EVERYWHERE!), and I imagine it filled up.  Thankfully I know to call my friends who care about me and my success and have been successful and I talk with them and they can talk me down.  My biggest counselor has been the Lord tho.  He knows how much even more than me, of how much I've been struggling. 

Pray for me OH family, that I stay strong and stay away from those damned hot tamales!  LOL  Be well OH family