Reach Onederland

It has been over a year since my last entry. October 12, 2008 was my 2 year anniversary since surgery. I still can't believe that it has been 2 years. I have lost about 160 pounds so far with more to lose. I have managed to get down to 208 but keep bouncing between 208 and 214. I am setting a goal to be under 200 before the end of the year. It is going to be a challenge since my weight loss has but completely stopped at this point. This year has been rough with the loss of my mother in March and the cancer scare that is still haunting me. I let myself cross too many lines this year, seeing how far I could push myself. Some of those times were not pleasant. I have learned a lot and wished I had done a lot more better. You really don't know how you are going to react to situations til you've been there, but there are a lot of things I wish I had done differently on this journey. The most important thing is that there is still time to get back on track and see this through. I have recently joined a gym and trying to work out as much as possible. I still have days when I don't want to do anything. I have a ways to go, but at least I have a picture of where I want to be.
There are many things that I can do now that I couldn't before. I still amaze myself sometimes when I realize that I can do something new. I look forward to doing more. Do I regret the surgery? No way. Would I do it again? Yes, in a heartbeat. Am I happy with the results? Without a doubt. Even though I am still over 200 pounds, I have to look at the difference in my life now compared to 2 years ago. Going from a size 34 jeans to a 16 is pretty sweet, a 5x scrub to a large is amazing, no blood pressure medicine, no CPAP machine, no shortness of breath trying to walk, no pain in my legs and back just to stand. My life has completely changed and I am forever grateful to have had the opportunity to have this surgery. I will look at this coming year as the year of reaching goals and making things happen for me. I am excited about the future and look forward to living my life

I am late as usual getting in my results. I have had a lot going on lately and haven't had the chance to be online much. I have been sick a lot lately, and as I posted last month, I knew that my weight loss would be slow for this month. Well, I was right. I was the same at  241. This is the first month that I haven't had some kind of a loss. I am not going to get upset or beat myself up cause I know this is normal. I am going to have to work harder to get it going again. I have set a goal of 199 before October 12. That is going to be a challenge. I am going to try my best to get there. None the less, I am very thankful for what I have lost so far. This surgery has saved my life and for that I am grateful. I just don't want to destroy everything that I have done. Well, lets make 10 months a better one!!!! 

Well, I am very late getting in my 8 month post. I have been sick for most of the month of June and just gettting to where I  feel good again. So, I have a lot of catching up to do,  in more ways than one.  
My weight for this month was 241, making my loss this month 6 pounds. With everything that I have gone through this month, it is a good loss. I will take it.  I had a personal goal of 230 before June 16. I didn't make it, but was close. I am still proud of what I have done so far. I know that this road is going to get harder as time goes by. I am trying to prepare myself for that. I am wearing a size 22, but they are starting to get loose.  I would like to be under 200 before my one year. I have lots do to do to get to that point.  I see some old habits trying to come back in and some foods I can "get away with".  I find that very scary, and hope that I can get a grip on that soon.  The last thing I want to do is get to the point that got me in this mess to start with. It is getting close to my 9 month mark already, and with my illness, my weight loss is going to be very low. I am okay with that. I just got to get on the ball for the next month.  I have some new pics also that I want to get posted. Maybe this week. Catch ya later.

Today marks my 7 months since surgery. Wow! 7 months. I really can't believe that it has been that long. But, then again, it seems like it was just yesterday. I have come a very long way in a very short time actually. I can now eat a little more food. Sometimes that scares me. I don't want to get into any old habits of eating too much. I am still not hungry, but I do catch myself eating something when I really shouldn't.  I really don't want to get in that rut. This month has been very stressful and I need to pull out of it soon. It is going to be even crazier because we are having a house built and we are moving out soon. 
My current weight is 247. My loss for this month is 7 pounds. It is getting less and less every month. I need to start excerising more.  That would help out a lot I am sure. I also need to increase my water intake. So, I know that my loss can be better than what it is. I know that I have just a few more months for this surgery to work for me, so I need to make the most of it while I can.  I have lost 94 pounds since surgery and 120 pounds total. I am very very proud of that. I look back at pictures of me from one year ago, and I can't believe that it is me that I am looking at.  I am still looking forward to see what I really look like. Well, I will catch you next month!