Hello everyone, I swear this is new to me, I never in 1 million imagine that I will be doing this but It has come to the point of no return.

I'm SIMONE:)

I have 3 kids, 2 girls and a boy ages 10,8 and 3. I always been the "Skinny" girl on the block. I have pictures of my mom when she was my age and she was skinny as well!!!

I have a big family, 3 sisters and 5 brothers and all are healthy, normal size and not obese. My life changed when I first had my daughter at 17 years old. I went from 130 pounds to 165. I had a job so I would walk to work while my child father would take care of our daughter. I went back to my normal weight in a month flat!!!

Then I got pregnant with my 2nd daughter and OMG she DID IT!!!!!  I went from 130 to 196 pounds NO JOKE!!! she was 10 pounds 8 ounces!!!!!

After I had my daughter I did not think much about my body going back to the normal rate, I just went on with my life having 2 beautiful daughters. 

Well I went back to work and notice my legs and arms went back skinny but my stomach, and butt stayed. I looked wierd. My stomach looked as if I was still 9 months pregnant... as I remembered with my 1st daughter I went back to shape ASAP. Years passed and my body still no changes I went from 190 to 225 in 2003.

After 3 years of living life regularly I tried over 50 different diets and lost 40 pounds then gained 50..I would lose 20 pounds then gain back 35!!!  THEN I got pregnant in 2006. 

I also got married 02/14/2007  so I really just not payed attention to how I looked because everyone was used to me and looked at me normal,, my hubby loved me for me so I was not quick to recognize my weight issue.

09/04/2008 - THE DAY MY LIFE CHANGED

I was sitting on the couch, just getting home from work and I was thirsty. I went to the store and purchased a case of water just to have in the house (i was a pop drinker)

and by the end of the day I drink that whole case of 24 bottled water!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then I notice I had to use to bathroom alot, I went wayyyyyy more then usual.

 I went to see my primary doc and she orders labs on me and 2 weeks later I found out I was a type 2 diabetic :(  once I started on the meds I soon stop drinking so much water and using the bathroom alot. I was depressed:( 

I hit rock bottom.. then my husband went prison for parole violation and he had to do 3 years in prison. So I really took an emotional toll and Just gave up on life.

I started to see a therapist in early 2009 and she gave me advice about my life and trying to turn it around. I really just said to her "yea yea yea" and never really listen to what she said. I just felt like a FAT UGLY BLACK LOSER!!!

All of the years I tried to lose this weight and using different diet techniques made me just say F_CK this I dnt want to lose weight I just wont ever get back healthy and back to a normal mom.

I met with my primary doc 06/2010 and we had a discussion, she looked in my

charts and notice my weight history of 7 years and notice that I have tried and she mentioned weight loss surgery. I looked at her like WTF hell naw women I aint letting nobody cut in me!!! that is just nonsense. She immediately turned red...I told her that this is not the thing for me and she said "well you know what simone how long with you sit around and keep "Trying" to be healthy, how long will you sit around and cry about being a diabetic? how long will you sit around and "TRY" why will you choose failure when success is an option???"  I blinked my eyes like damn you are right:(

She referred me to the Allina Bariatric Clinic here in Minnesota.

So far I have attended several support groups and also attended the seminar.

I  have been placed on a 6 month supervise weight lost by the dietitian for insurance purpose and will be done Nov 12th 2010.

I met with my surgeon during the seminar and he is VERY cool lol.

you guys I think this is it!!! I can't wait to be healthy and no longer have to cry at night about I think my life will end as a diabetic, and I can't wait until I can take my kids to the fair and walk around all day long without being soo freaking tired.