OMG I am so excited!!

Dec 22, 2010

When I went to see my Doctor in November, he put me on the waiting list right then and there. I am not sure how long the list is in Ontario, but it seems the average is about 9 months. My next follow up appointment was supposed to be in February, even though the doctor wanted to see me again in January - but he was all booked up. They told me to call back towards the end of December and maybe there would be a cancellation. I called back today and sure enough, I got my appointment moved to January 10th!!

I am still a little fuzzy on the process timeline, but this still makes me happy!!!
I know I will have a million questions for him! I should probably make a list!

If I dont get back online before the holidays.....here's wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and/or Happy Holidays!


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My job makes me ill....

Dec 14, 2010

My job is very boring.
I used to do meaningful work but that didnt pay. When I became a single parent, I had to find a job that paid the bills. Luckily, I had a friend who worked in the government and was able to not only get me in, but into a permanent position. I am not stupid; I know better than to look a gift-horse in the mouth.

What the hell does that even mean; a gift horse? What is a gift horse??

Anyways, I used to teach. I taught preschool for many years and then moved on to teaching college ....Early Childhood Education in College to be exact. I was even Department Head at one point....which *did* pay very well except that they discontinued the program due to lack of enrollment. Everyone wants to be a computer tech. Nobody wants to be a nursery school teacher.

I suppose I could go back and get my license to become a kindergarten teacher....which is what I would really LOVE LOVE LOVE to do.....but it requires a: a level of confidence I dont know if I have anymore; b: a level of courage I dont know if I have and; c: a level of money I KNOW I dont have!

So here I sit at my desk, pretending to work.....about once a month or so I come up with a report that everyone thinks is brilliance but for the most part....I sit here and check my Facebook page, research recipes and check out the OH website. I talk to my mom via email. I sign stuff.

It is the epitome of boredom. I would give anything to be back changing diapers if only it paid enough to feed my own children.
I think that was why I left actually. I had to leave my own baby in someone else's care to go and look after someone else's baby. It just didnt make sense to me!!

Now that my kids are a bit older, I would love to go back to doing what I love to do. I love the little ones. I hate budget reports.

Blah. Just having a "poor me" day becaue the weather is crappy (lots of SNOW!!!!) and I'm still sick :(
I am sure a little bit of the lemony goodness of Neo-Citran and a nap when I get home will make the world a brighter place.

Now, back to Googling cool haircuts for when (if??) my hair falls out after surgery ;)

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Sick :(

Dec 09, 2010

I am sick today. I probably have brochitis and possibly pneumonia but I am here at work anyways. I have interviews to do otherwise I'd be at home, hiding under my duvet with the lemony goodness of neo-citran!

So...on a completely different topic.....I have been scanning before and after pictures....and one of my biggest concerns is...my boobs.
Will I lose them??

I havent really noticed too many people mentioning whether or not they have retained their former bra sizes (cup size) or not. I am currently a DDD (yes I *know* that means I am really something closer to an E or possibly F but shush and let me have my fantasies ok??) I realize I will go down a bit but does anyone know how much is an average loss of cup size?

Not only am I concerned about being too small ( I LOVE my girls!!) but also kind of concerned about what they would LOOK like!!! I am not really into the tennis ball in a nylon look!!!

Along the same subject line, what about plastic surgery? Does everyone need it? Are there ways to prevent needing it? If my buxom beauties shrink too much and become shriveled little raisins, will plastic surgery even help?? Is that covered by insurance or by provincial helath care for Canadian residents (Ontario OHIP)??? Do I need to start saving up now?

of course, none of these things would ever sway my decision against getting the surgery....I am just doing as much research beforehand as I possibly can :)

I have another question later about protein powder and soup but I will save that for another day :)
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Support at home

Dec 06, 2010

My Honey and I were talking about my WLS and just trying to put some things into perspective....like going out to eat and stuff. We try to go out once every 2 weeks for a "date night"....just a nice dinner without kids. Dont get me wrong, I love my children....but sometimes its nice to have peace and quiet! With 5 kids, lemme tell ya, I have learned to enjoy the sound of SILENCE. What will happen after my surgery? We may have to find other things to do on date night!!
Its quite a way away (since I dont actually have a date set yet) so I will worry abotu it later. I always say I only have enough worry space in my brain for one thing at a time!!

One of the other topics that came up, was how, maybe if I got very thin I would think about leaving him for some young sexy 20-something.
I knew that was going to come up sooner or later.

He made it out to be a joke but I could tell there was some truth and worry behind it. And the reality is, it doesnt matter what I tell him, I think he will still worry about it. He is quite overweight himself and I think maybe that adds to his insecurity about it.
I gave him all the reassurance I could but in the end, he will have to decide for himself. I felt a bit sorry for him, knowing there was really no way I could "fix" his issue.

Not to mention the idea of banging a 20-something, although appealing in the fantasy sense of it- really holds very little appeal for me. I remember when I *was* 20-something and how awkward, hurried and inexperienced 20 yr olds were!! And dumb!!!! Ugh!!

Luckily, the ones in my fantasies never speak ;)
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First day

Dec 02, 2010

I just registered today even though I have been guest browsing this site for some time now.

I am on a waiting list for RNY surgery which will likely be next summer, but no official date as of yet. At the moment, I am just trying to gather as much information as I can about it, read success stories and less sucessful ones too....

Still very excited/nervous/new to everything so I am sponging up all the info I can at the moment!
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