The trainer at the gym turned out to be true to form and gave me the low-down on a really great program that would "meet all my fitness goals" within one year. He spelled it all out in great detail and it sounded very achievable!!

Then the price tag.

3 sessions a week for 52 weeks at $ 62 a session is just a little over $ 10 grand.

Ouch!!

I smiled because it was pretty much the exact same spiel I got pre-surgery from another trainer at the same chain (different location).

I told him there was no way I could afford that and he did his best to try to make it sound like I wasn't going to be paying 10 grand but in the end, it still ends up costing 10 grand. Easy payment plan or not...who has $ 1000 for a down payment the week before Christmas?? Or ANY time for that matter??? And really?? How is $ 200 bi-weekly 'affordable'?? That's more than a lot of car payments!!

Aside from the old saying that "you can't put a price on your health".....I think I was more hurt because after all the time I spent with this guy and he really seemed like he was listening to what I had to say, to what my goals were, etc. I just feel like I wasted so many hours of my life going through the whole process with him. It was very disappointing. Almost like dating!! As my good friend Maggie would say....what a waste of mascara!

Not only that, but he said that I could cut out the body pump and yoga classes and definitely cut out the running because cardio isn't what I need now....WTF??.....and just focus on weight training with a trainer.

But I LIKE the classes!! I LOVE running!! Why would anyone suggest that I cut these out ??

I was very discouraged and felt so disappointed and frustrated when I got home yesterday...what did I do???

Yep. Ate a chocolate.

Oh and it wasn't any old chocolate either. It was an Extra Dark Lindor chocolate.

And then ate another.

Guess how I felt about THAT??

Yep. Guilty and even more horrible.

Ahhh....good times. I remember when this type of behaviour was an everyday thing and probably several times a day. And also when I couldn't recognize it for what it was and stop it or even acknowledge it. Vicious circle that would spiral into a binge....yep. Good times.

I put the chocolates away and grabbed a piece of cheese. Then I started making supper and had a nice piece of chicken.

I still felt horrible so I grabbed the hot water bottle and went to snuggle with it on the couch and ended up going to bed early. First day of TOM too so maybe that had something to do with my emotions getting the better of me??

I woke up this morning and promised myself that I would just put yesterday in the past and start fresh with today. It certainly helps that I woke up to a whole world freshly covered in a (really thick!!) blanket of snow. Everything looks fresh and clean and pure today.

As Anne Shirley said....today is a new day, with no mistakes in it yet.

Now, to plan my menu while browsing the flyers and have some lovely quinoa with pecans and raisins for breakfast.  Then maybe a little 5k on the treadmill?? Sounds like a good way to start a new day

 

 

 

 

I try not to talk too much about surgery to my Honey because...well because I dont want to drive him crazy with my obsession:) I come here instead  ;)

I was reading a blog about someone going to a restaurant and their significant other not sharing a plate with them. At first I thought, "how insensitive!". I should have been a Gemini though because I am always of 2 minds about everything. My second thought was...ok well maybe they didnt want to have to order something different to acccommodate the person, or maybe they didnt want them to eat something they shouldnt....ok, not so bad after all.

I brought this scenario up to my Honey and as I mentioned, I rarely do....so his answer was very surprising.

He said (paraphrased):
You know Babygirl, this is going to be hard on you in a lot of ways but dont forget its going to be hard on me too. I love our date nights where we go out to dinner, just the 2 of us and we wont be able to do that for a long time. I am not going to sit there and watch you eat one meatball while I scarf down something I know you like, but can't have! I will feel so guilty! So ya, I am going to miss you.

Awww....*sniff*

We discussed how I will eventually be able to get in more than a half cup of soup and life will return to a "new" normal after a while but he certainly had a point. And I totally missed it.

I was so focused on myself, it never occured to me to think about how it would affect him. I mean, I did in some ways....we discussed the whole cooking thing since he is the one primarily responsible for feeding the hoarde......he has been researching new ways of fat-free cooking and searching out sugar-free recipes for me.....but aside from that, I guess I never really thought about it.

Does that make me a bad person?

I always said that if anything were to happen to put me in a situation where I was single again, I would stay that way because there was no way in HELL I was ever going to date again!! I just dont have the energy, patience, or motivation to go through that kind of torture. But now....here I am!!! This is almost the same thing!! Trying to come up with new ideas for dating my own Honey that do not involve going out to dinner!!

Any suggestions??
(keep in mind that my Honey is a very large man so anything exercise that is more than a moonlit walk along the canal is out of the question - or ice skating; he loves that. Actually he doesnt mind a bike ride either....) We actually went to make beer one time as our "date" . That was kind of fun.

So ya.....here I am, nearly 40 and trying to figure out what to do on a date. I never thought I would be in this position again!! LOL!!! Very interesting side effect of WLS!!!