I started an exercise program.  I do 30 min. on a treadmill, two leg weight machines, and 3 arm machines.  I am obsessed with what I call bat wings.  The excess weight left in your arms when you lose weight.  So far I have made it two nights a week.  Only because of being so busy.  But will ease up to more nights as adjustments are made.  I go back to my family Doctor for a check up on the 19th and see what we do next.  I will have two more visits with him after that.  It seems as if time is inching by.   It helps to read what others are going through.  And looking at the pictures gives you hope.  I looked at a Victoria's Secret catalog this past weekend and they had some cute, cute sweaters for sizes XS and XL.  I thought to myself, I will have my cute sweater next winter.   I have been scared to entertain the thoughts of picturing myself in smaller clothes.  It's really hard to imagine.   I have focused so long on just the physical benefits, that I have totally pushed that issue to the side.   Hopefully it will all come together mentally for me.  That one clear picture.  Well all for now.