ITS NOW FEBRUARY 24TH AND I GOT UP THIS MORNING AND CALLED HURLEY TO SEE IF MY PSYCH RESULTS WERE IN AND IF EVERYTHING WAS OK  THEY SAID THEY HAD NOT RECEIVED IT YET  SO I CALLED THE PSYCH OFFICE AND SHE SAID SHE NEEDED TO HAVE A MEDICAL RELEASE FROM FILLED OUT SO THEY COULD FAX IT OVER SO I SAID WAIT TILL I GET TO WORK AND ILL CALL YOU AND YOU CAN FAX ONE OVER AND ILL FAX IT BACK  SO I WENT TO WORK AND THATS WHAT I DID AND 5 MIN AFTER I FAXED IT BACK TO HER SHE CALLED ME AND SAID THAT SHE SENT THE WRONG FROM OVER AND THAT WE HAD TO DO IT AGAIN  I SAID OK GOT OFF THE PHONE THINKING WOW THAT OFFICE REALLY HAS ISSUES I'M GLAD I'M THRU WITH THEM (DON'T KNOW IF I MENTIONED THAT THIS WAS NOT THE PSYCH I WAS SEEING NOW DIFFERENT ONE)  WELL WHEN I GOT HOPE FROM WORK THAT NIGHT I GOT MY PSYCH EVAL IN THE MAIL OPENED IT AND IT READ REAL FUNNY TO ME IN ONE PARAGRAPH IT READ I DO NOT SEE ANY MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES WHICH WOULD DISQUALIFY THIS EXAMINEE FROM WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY. AND IN THE VERY NEXT PARAGRAPH SAY THIS PATIENT WILL NEED TO COMMIT TO AND PARTICIPATE IN A MINIMUM OF 12 INDIVIDUAL THERAPY SESSIONS PRIOR TO HER SURGERY AND A MINIMUM OF 12 MONTHS POST SURGICAL I WAS LIKE WHAT I'M FINE AND HAVE NO ISSUES BUT YOU STILL WANT ME TO COME SEE YOU FOR 12 SESSIONS BEFORE SURGERY????? DIDN'T MAKE SENSE AND I WAS MAD AS H E DOUBLE HOCKEY STICKS  THINKING THIS QUACK JUST WANTS MY MONEY AND I'M NOT HAVING IT AGAIN GOT SUCKERED INTO 6 SESSIONS ALREADY CAUSE OF SOMETHING STUPID ON BOTH MY PART AND HURLEYS AND OF COURSE IT WAS TO LATE TO CALL HURLEY TO SEE IF THIS MENT WHAT I THOUGHT IT DID SO I GOT NO SLEEP THAT NIGHT WORRYING ABOUT IT AND CALLED FIRST THING IN THE MORNING ON FEBRUARY 25TH AND THE LADY HANDLING MY CASE SAID MY FILE WAS ON THE SURGEONS DESK TO SIGN OFF ON THE PSYCH EVAL AND SHE WOULDN'T KNOW ANYTHING TILL THE NEXT DAY  I WAS SO FRUSTRATED, STRESSED, TIRED AND MAD AT THE WORLD THAT DAY BUT NOTHING I COULD DO BUT SIT AND WAIT!!! AND ONCE AGAIN ANOTHER NIGHT OF NO SLEEP UP WORRYING AGAIN  CALLED HURLEY ON FEBRUARY 26TH AND THE LADY HANDLING MY CASE SAID THEY GOT PSYCH EVAL  AND I WAS ALL SET I ASKED IF THERE WAS ANY PROBLEMS WITH THE EVAL AND SHE SAID WELL HE RECOMMENDED THAT YOU SEE HIM FOR SOME VISITS BUT SINCE YOUR SEEING OUR PSYCH YOUR ALREADY DOING THAT NOW AND IF SHE SIGNS OFF ON YOU WHEN THE 6 VISITS ARE THRU THAT SHOULD BE FINE I'M LIKE SWEET I WAS SO REJOICED AND RELIEVED EVEN DID A HAPPY DANCE LOL  NOW THAT I'M OVER THAT HURTLE HOPEFULLY ONLY A FEW MORE STEPS AND ILL BE THERE

OK ITS FEBRUARY 23 BEEN A TOTAL OF 3 WEEKS SINCE IVE STARTED MY TRAINING I CALL IT (I HATE THE DIET WORD)FOR MY NEW LIFE STYLE THINGS HAVE ACTUALLY BEEN NOT TO BAD I'M GETTING THE WATER DOWN WITH NO PROBLEMS THEN ALLOW MYSELF MY CRYSTAL LIGHT AFTER THAT I BOUGHT THIS 32OZ JUG SO I KNOW WHEN IVE DONE 2 ITS FLAVOR TIME LOL  3 0Z MEAT PORTIONS ARE OK HARD NOT TO HAVE MORE WHEN ITS SOMETHING I REALLY LIKE  ONLY ALLOWED 1/2 C OF POTATO'S AND WHEN I MEASURED THIS OUT I WAS LIKE OMG THEY GOT TO BE KIDDING LOL SO I DON'T EVEN BOTHER WITH THEM THAT WOULD BE LIKE TEASING MY TASTE BUDS THE ONLY THING THAT IS REAL HARD FOR ME IS MY BREAD ONLY CAN HAVE 2 SLICES A DAY AND THAT'S HARD IF YOU WANT TOAST AND THEN A SANDWICH UMMMM AS FAR AS THE PROTEIN SHAKES I AGREE WITH MY PSYCH VANILLA IS THE BEST I MIX IT WITH MY CRYSTAL LIGHT OR FROZEN FRUIT AND SPLENDA AND YUM!!!! IT TASTE LIKE IS SINFUL LOL GAVE UP ALL POP HAVEN'T EVEN WANTED IT BUT BY FAR THE HARDEST THING IS NOT DRINKING WHILE I'M EATING I DON'T KNOW HOW PEOPLE DO THIS ITS LIKE TORCHER VERY VERY HARD STILL NEED WORK ON THIS ONE I'M TAKING SMALL PEA SIZE BITES AND CHEWING REALLY GOOD FOR TREATS I GOT SUGAR FREE PUDDING, JELLO, POPSICLES, COOL WHIP AND ALSO SOME STRING CHEESE ALL IN ALL ITS NOT BAD AND MY HUNGER SEEMS TO BE OK WITH THE CHANGE HAVEN'T FELL OFF THE WAGON ON IT  IVE BEEN LOGGING WHAT I EAT EVERYDAY  AND IN 3 WEEKS I'M DOWN FROM 318 TO 307 THAT'S 11 POUNDS BABY LOL  WENT TO SEE PSYHC FOR MY SECOND VISIT SHE BASICALLY LOOKED OVER MY JOURNALS MADE A FEW DIFFERENT SUGGESTIONS ON DIFFERENT WAYS TO MAKE MEAT AND HOW TO GET CREATIVE WITH CHICKEN AND FISH LIKE TACOS FAJITAS ETC TOLD ME I WAS ON THE RIGHT TRACK AND EVERYTHING LOOKED GOOD AND THAT THIS WEEK SHE WOULD LIKE ME TO ADD EMOTION TO MY JOURNALS TO SEE HOW MUCH THEY PLAY ON WHEN WE EAT I WAS LIKE I CAN DO THAT BUT YOU KNOW ITS REALLY HARD MAYBE JUST FOR ME CAUSE I'M A REAL HAPPY PERSON AND I'M NOT THE TYPE TO SAY I'M REALLY MAD I NEED A BURGER OR WHATEVER ONLY THING I CAN COME UP WITH IS HAPPY WHEN ITS A DISH I REALLY LIKE OR BOARD SO ILL GRAB A MUNCHY AND I'M ALSO A BIG TV MUNCHER TO WELL ALL I CAN DO IS WRITE WHAT I FEEL HOPE ITS WHAT SHE IS LOOKING FOR I WILL SEE HER NEXT THUR MARCH 5 SORRY IF A BABBLED IN THIS ONE LOL BEEN A LONG DAY SORRY!!!! TILL NEXT TIME......

OK SO ITS FEBRUARY 2 AND I M MAD AND SCARED AND STRESSED OUT THAT I HAVE TO GO SEE THIS PSYCH I WALK INTO HER OFFICE AND FIRST THING THEY WANT IS WHAT???? A BOAT LOAD OF PAPERWORK FILLED OUT YOU WOULD THINK THEY WOULD JUST SEND IT OVER WITH THE REFERRAL BUT THAT WOULD BE TO EASY HUH LOL ANYWAYS I FILL IT OUT AND PAY MY GOD AWFUL BILL AND SIT AND WAIT LOOKING AROUND I NOTICE A SIGN THAT READ IF YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING LONGER THEN 10 MIN TELL THE GIRL AT THE DESK I'M THINKING OK AT LEAST ILL GET IN A TIMELY FASHION AND GUESS WHAT I DID WAS FAST REALLY THE LADY OPENED THE DOOR TO CALL ME BACK WAS DRESSED VERY CASUAL LOOKED AND SEEMED VERY FRIENDLY SHE CALLED MY NAME AND I FOLLOWED HER TO HER OFFICE WHERE I GOT TO SIT ONCE AGAIN ON ONE OF THOSE BIG COMFY SOFAS LOL SHE STARTED OUT BY LOOKING THRU MY FOLDER AND ASKED WHY I WAS THERE AND I SAID I'M NOT REALLY SURE AND STARTED TO EXPLAIN THE WHOLE STORY TO HER WHAT HAD HAPPENED AND WHY I GAINED WEIGHT BLAH BLAH BLAH YOU ALREADY KNOW IT LOL SHE WAS VERY FRIENDLY AND MADE ME FEEL VERY COMFORTABLE IT WAS LIKE TAKING TO A FRIEND REALLY SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE HERSELF HAS HAD THE SURGERY AND THAT MADE ME FEEL EVEN MORE INTERESTED IN WHAT SHE SAID SHE INFORMED ME ABOUT BOOKS TO BUY AND READ AND THE GOOD PROTEIN POWDERS TO BUY AND LOTS OF USEFUL STUFF ABOUT WHAT I MIGHT NEED AFTER SURGERY AND TRICKS SHE DOES TO MAKE SOME THINGS EASIER ON HERSELF AND LESS WORK AND TIME TO DO SHE GAVE ME SOME SAMPLES OF SOME PROTEIN MIXES TO TRY TO SEE WHAT I LIKED BUT INFORMED ME THAT VANILLA WAS ALWAYS A SAFE BET CAUSE YOU COULD MIX IT WITH JUST ABOUT ANYTHING FOR DIFFERENT TASTES AT THE END SHE SAID HOW MANY VISITS DO YOU HAVE TO DO I SAID 6 FROM WHAT I WAS TOLD SO SHE LOOKED IT UP AND YUP 6 SHE SAID WELL LETS DO THEM  WEEKLY SO WE CAN GET THEM OVER QUICK FOR YOU I'M LIKE COOL SHE REALLY DOES KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO HAVE TO WAIT AND WAIT FOR SOMETHING SO IMPORTANT TO YOU BUT ALSO INFORMED ME SHE WAS GOING ON VACATION FOR 2 WEEKS STARTING NEXT WEEK... OUCH THAT HURT BUT OK WHAT IS 2 MORE WEEKS SHE ALSO GAVE MY JOURNAL SHEETS TO FILL OUT AND BRING BACK TO HER AT OUR NEXT APPOINTMENT (HMMMM THAT SOUNDS LIKE WHAT I WANTED TO DO AT HURLEY BUT WAS TOLD NO MAYBE CAUSE THEY WANTED MY MONEY HMMM ) PROBABLY BETTER OFF WITH THIS LADY  THO SHE SEEMS TO BE PRETTY COOL AND KNOWS HER STUFF) SO OFF I WENT TO START MY TRAINING FOR MY NEW EATING HABITS AND LIFE STYLE ....

OK SO I MENTIONED EARLIER IN THE FIRST BLOG THAT I HAD TO TURN IN A MEDICAL RELEASE FORM FORM MY DOCTOR AND WAS GOING TO GET WEIGHED AGAIN SO PAPER SHOWED MY BMI AT 50 SO INSURANCE WOULD COVER IT AS I WAS HEADING TO HURLEY TO DO THIS I GOT A CALL FROM THE PSYCHIATRIST OFFICE SAYING THAT THEY FORGOT TO GIVE ME SOME FORMS TO FILL OUT AND ASKED IF I COULD STOP IN AND DO SO I'M LIKE SURE ILL BE THERE IN LIKE A HOUR AND CONTINUED ON TO HURLEY WHEN I GOT THERE I TURNED IN MY FORM AND ASKED TO BE WEIGHED THE NURSE CAME AND GOT ME TOOK ME BACK AND WOW I GAIN MORE THEN I THOUGHT WEIGHED IN AT 318 OMG HEAVIEST IVE EVER BEEN BUT IT DID PUT MY BMI AT 51 SO I GUESS YOU TAKE THE GOOD WITH THE BAD JUST KNEW NOW WAS TIME TO GET INTO EXERCISE ROUTINE AND DIET CHANGES FOR SURE ANYWAYS HAD THE NURSE LOG IT ON MY FILE AND I WAS OFF TO THE PSYCH OFFICE AGAIN... GET THERE FILL OUT WHAT SHE NEEDED AND WALKED OUT THINKING YES EVERYTHING IS DONE NOW JUST SIT BACK AND PRAY TO GOD  AND KEEP MY FINGERS CROSSEDFOR A APPROVAL FROM INSURANCE.... BUT OF COURSE THINGS CANT GO THAT EASY FOR ME WHEN I GOT TO MY CAR I HAD MISSED A CALL FROM THE DIETITIAN FROM HURLEY TELLING ME SHE NEEDED TO SPEAK TO ME I'M THINKING OH GREAT WHAT NOW SO I CALLED HER BACK AND SHE STATED THAT SHE WAS CONCERNED ABOUT MY WEIGHT GAIN SO I GO ON AND EXPLAIN THE WHOLE BMI NEEDING TO BE 50 BEFORE INSURANCE WOULD APPROVE AND THAT I CALLED TO SEE IF IT WAS ALRIGHT IF A CAME IN FOR ANOTHER WEIGH IN AND THAT THE GIRL TOLD ME THAT SHE COULD NOT TELL ME TO GAIN WEIGHT BUT I COULD GET RE WEIGHED SO THAT'S WHAT I DID SHE SAID WELL IN THE PAPERS WE GAVE YOU AT THE CONSULTATION THERE WAS A DIET YOU WAS SUP-POST TO START IN THERE AND ITS OBVIOUS YOUR NOT DOING IT I SAID NO I'M NOT I JUST EXPLAINED THAT I WASN'T I ASKED WELL COULD I START IT NOW AND COME IN WEEKLY TO SHOW YOU I'M DOING IT ALONG WITH A JOURNAL OF WHAT I'M EATING SHE SAID NO THAT ID HAVE TO SEE THERE PSYCHIATRIST FOR 6 VISITS ON LEARNING HOW TO EAT I'M LIKE YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME SHE SAID NO I'M SORRY THAT'S OUR RECOMMENDATION FOR YOU I'M THINKING GREAT THAT'S ANYWHERE FROM 6 WEEKS TO 6 MONTHS LONGER I'M GOING TO HAVE TO WAIT NOT TO MENTION THE EXTRA 350.00 OUT OF MY POCKET CAUSE INSURANCE DON'T COVER BUT HALF OF THE SESSIONS BUT IVE CAME THIS FAR MIGHT AS WELL RIDE IT OUT AND IT REALLY WAS MY OWN FAULT FOR NOT STARTING THE DIET AND JUST WORKING ON THAT 5 TENTHS OF A POINT FOR INSURANCE COVERAGE  BUT STILL NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT SO I CALLED THERE PSYCH AND SET A APPOINTMENT UP FOR THE FOLLOWING MONDAY....OH GREAT NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS!!!!

OK WENT TO THE PSYCH EVAL ON THE 27TH OF JANUARY WAS SCARED  NOT KNOWING WHAT TO EXPECT WASN'T SURE WHAT THEY WOULD ASK OR FIND LOL WHEN I FIST GOT THERE I HAD ANOTHER BATCH OF PAPERWORK TO FILL OUT NEVER SEEMS TO END IN THIS PROCESS THE PSYCHIATRIST CAME OUT AND GOT ME HE WAS A RATHER NERDY LOOKING MAN FIRST THOUGHT WAS OH BOY HERE WE GO GOING TO 50 QUESTION ME AND I COULD FEEL MY HEART A BEATING WHEN I GOT TO HIS ROOM I FOUND THE TYPICAL SOFA WAITING THERE WITH MY NAME ALL OVER IT I SAT LOOKED AROUND AND THOUGHT OMG HE NEEDS TO DO SOME FILING FOLDERS LAYING EVERYWHERE COULD NOT EVEN SEE THE TOP OF HIS DESK HE SAT IN A BIG OVER SIZED CHAIR AND EXPLAINED WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN STEP BY STEP AND TOLD ME TO JUST RELAX AND ANSWER EVERYTHING HONESTLY AND THERE WOULD BE NO PROBLEMS THEN THE QUESTIONS STARTED AND IT REALLY WASN'T WHAT I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE AT ALL HE MADE ME RELAX MORE AND MORE ONCE THE QUESTIONS STARTED BASICALLY JUST ASKED WHAT DIETS I HAVE TRIED WHY DID I THINK THEY FAILED IF I WAS A DRINKER WHAT MEDS I WAS TAKING AND HOW MY HOME LIFE WAS AND THAT WAS PRETTY MUCH IT WITH HIM THEN HE WALKED ME TO THIS ROOM AND I HAD TO WATCH A VIDEO OF HIM THAT WAS ABOUT 30 TO 40 MIN LONG ON HOW TO EAT AFTER SURGERY AND THINGS THAT MIGHT HAPPEN AND HOW TO DEAL WITH THE EMOTIONAL PART AND ABOUT THE TEST THAT WAS COMING UP AFTER THIS VIDEO IT JUST TOLD ME TO TELL THE TRUTH AND ANSWER EACH QUESTION HONESTLY AS POSSIBLE IF NOT THE TEST WOULD DETECT IT  AND MIGHT BE ASKED TO START IT OVER OR TAKE ANOTHER TEST AFTER THE TAPE WAS OVER THEY GAVE ME A 356 QUESTION TEST THAT BASICALLY HAD ALOT OF QUESTIONS ABOUT THE WAY I SEE THINGS AND IF I WAS A DRINKER AND EVER THOUGHT OF SUICIDE AND THEY ALSO HANDED ME ANOTHER TEST THAT WAS LIKE 600 QUESTIONS LONG THAT REPEATED THE SAME QUESTIONS OVER AND OVER JUST CHANGED A LITTLE OF THE WORDING TO TRY TO CATCH YOU IN A LIE WAS NOT A BAD TEST JUST A VERY BORING  ONE I GOT SICK OF ANSWERING THE SAME STUFF OVER AND OVER AND OVER TOOK FOREVER TO DO FINALLY FINISHED IT AND TURNED IT INTO THE NURSE AND SHE TOLD ME TO HAVE A SEAT SHED GRADE PART OF IT AND SEE IF I HAD TO TAKE ANOTHER ONE AGAIN OR NOT SO I SAT AND SAT THINKING OMG THERE GOING TO MAKE ME RETAKE IT BUT SHE CAME OUT AND SAID YOUR FINE TO GO AND THAT THEY HAD TO SCORE EVERYTHING BY HAND SO MIGHT TAKE LIKE 2 WEEKS TO GET RESULTS I WAS LIKE WOOHOOO THANK GOD I COULD NOT WAIT TO GET OUT OF THERE WAS BORING BUT WORTH IT HAD TO BE DONE ALL IN ALL NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE .....