Afraid of maintenance...

Sep 21, 2012

Some days, I swear I feel the restriction I had when I was a new post-op.  It's like it's still actually there.  I rejoice in those days and thank my pouch for still "working".  

And then...  Then comes the bottomless pit days, as I call them.  I feel ravished, starved, so hungry.  I want to eat everything in sight, especially if it's a CARB.  I'm doing my best not to succumb to those days, but it's a challenge.

I've been doing the MFP (MyFitnessPal) thing for around 6 mos or a little more now. I haven't had a day yet that I've gone over calories, but, admittedly, I've been a bit of a nazi about it, too.  I am now in a stall, plateau, whatever you want to call it.  The scale hasn't moved in almost 2 weeks.  I think it's time to up my calories, and yet I'm afraid as heck to do that.  I don't want to ruin my progress, especially when I'm still not fitting all my "goal" clothes yet (i.e. the designer jeans I'd ordered via sample sale that never fit me before I regained and they don't quite fit now).  I am starting to lift weights and I'm doing various routines of circuit training to include Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred.  I think it's all about the toning now and that's what is going to make the difference, but why on earth am I so afraid to increase my calories.  I know I had to be eating between 2500-3000 calories a day when I was gaining and I know it was pure crap, at that.  At least my calories would be good (better) calories this time.  What gives with my psychological block that won't hardly let me eat above 1200 calories a day (before exercise)?  I am pretty sure it's the reason for my stall.  I've been at 137.4  for a while and I would like to get back to 134, for a solid 200 lbs lost.

I would love any words of wisdom or advice.  Thanks!

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Cibolo, TX
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21.2
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RNY
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08/03/2004
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Jun 21, 2004
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