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For about the majority of my life, I have taken care of people.  I raised 3 children, whom I adopted.  I started all of this at an early age.  I don't regret my decisions. However at some point in time, I lost myself.  I have always been the type to take CONTROL of everything and everyone.  I feel like, since the kids are grown, well almost 1 is 17, that it is my time to shine.  I lost myself, forgot about ME.  I repeatedly did for others and not myself.  So I found myself a little.  I start doing and worrying about me.  Sometimes people can be so unappreciative. After I think about all the SACRIFICES I MADE.  And I found that out.  Only after steering away from those types.  Becoming a loner, for fear of being hurt or challenged.  But now I want my life back. I want to meet people.. I am a beautiful, caring person.  I can now say No. to somethings, but food.  I have tried all diets. Success and some NONE.  Now I want to experience life.  And not feel like my weight is holding me back.  I want the motivation that I give others back, cause I am one who appreciates.  I am focusing on me, and therefore I am considering surgery.  After many failed attempts, this is my LAST RESORT.  I currently weight 300lbs.  I once weighed in at 320lbs.  I lost 55lbs but as you see, I am slowly approaching that again. I told myself I would NEVER go back to that weight again or else.  I need some intervention NOW.  I am a little indecisive on with i want the lap band or gastric bypass. But now I have been reading about this VSG. it all sounds good. But for surgery  I have my reasoning. BUT ON TOP OF IT ALL, I AM SCARED OF DYING FOR TRYING TO BE SLIM.  I have already been to a seminar, but I go for a consult on the 7th of Jan. 2011...I would appreciate hearing from others. Why did you choose the surgery you did.