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Yesterday was my one year anniversary, I have lost 170 pounds and I still need to lose 50 pound. I’m very happy. I can’t believe it’s been a year. It has gone so fast. Had my year check- up and everything looks good except my B-12 is low. I’m going to take my pills more often.  Still need to get more protein in, because my hair is still falling out. I’ve been at a plateau for about three weeks now. Been having back troubles and not been able to exercise for a few months. Went to a pain doctor and found out that I have 2 budging disks, L 4&5. Next week I’m starting pain management, so hopefully I will be able to start walking or running. I want to move to lose. I want to get under 200 pounds for the first time in over twenty years. Right now I’m 226. I can feel it in my soul that I can do this. God has given me this chance, now it is up to me. And I want it BAD. 

I’m not the same person that I was a year ago. I’m happier and have a passion for living. I tell my husband I want to feel life, not just sit and watch it go by. Right now I’m just sitting watching life go by, but next week watch out after I get my pain treatment. For the first time in over 15 years I bought me some high heel boots. I can’t wait to wear them after I get cleared from the doctor. I hope that I can remember how to walk in them without breaking my neck LOL.

I’ve had a few wow moments like being able to finally wear your husband jeans and finding that there too big. Last month for the first time ever he grabbed me around my waist and picked me up and lifted me off the floor.  My favorite is looking around a realizing that I’m not the biggest one in the room. However; I’ve got to work on my body image. I’ve still think of myself is bigger than I really am. I know that body perception is the last to change. I’m not shopping in the plus size anymore.

What I find funny is I still eat sugar free oatmeal for breakfast every day. I need to make some protein muffins or something. Oatmeal is getting old. Sometimes I have to make myself eat. To me, food is just something to fill a hole no matter what it is. Who would have thought I would ever feel that way about food. The one thing that I miss is diet coke. I know that I can have it after it goes flat, but what’s the point.

This is not a diet, it is a new way of life. I have been made aware everything that I put in my mouth. Sugar is my enemy and is hidden everywhere. If someone would ask me if I would have the RNY again, I would say I wish I would have done it sooner. I’m a happier person and feel like nothing can stop me. Next fall I graduate with my BSW in social work. I plan to go on for my masters. My goal is to help with the childhood obesity epidemic. I want to make a difference in someone’s life.  

A year ago I was killing myself with every bite that I took. Now, I’m on a journey and I can’t wait to see where it leads me.

It has been a zoo since the WLS. For a few day’s thought that I might have made the worst mistake of my life by having it done. But, after a few days and being able to keep food down I am not seeing results. I have lost 37 since the first of November and I can’t miss it. The first week of being post opt I lost only five pounds, I was hoping for more.  The main thing that I at was pureed potato soup and SF jello and pudding I was not getting enough water in so I went and got some protein hot chocolate and chicken broth and was able to keep that down.

I wish someone would have warned me able the pain from the main incision. It has kicked my butt. But with time the pain is easing.

The second week I started on being on puree food. The main thing that I have eaten has been soup and cheese sticks. I have not been able to stand the taste of a protein shake during the first two weeks.  It was not until Wednesday that I have been able to keep one down. For Christmas I got the kids a Wii. I think that is why I have been having trouble with my port is because I should have been taking it easy, but instead I have been playing tennis on the Wii at least I have been moving.

Yesterday I made a big crock pot of white chili that was so good. I was crazy and ate few bites of spinach.  It tasted so good. I as getting very sick of pureed foods. Today I have watched several shows about obesity and thank goodness that I had the chance to have this surgery and change my life for the better.  I still need to work on getting in my liquids in and taking my meds. I just need to remember that I am just over two weeks out and I need to take my time.

It has been a while since I have posted anything. I have been so busy with school and work that it has been hard to stop and take a break. Today it is three and half weeks from my surgery and it seems like forever.  I have been on protein shakes twice a day for the past two weeks to try to lose ten pounds. Well, I have done that and now I’m just trying to get use to the liquid diet. I go for my surgery consult Tuesday with the doctor for the final visit and pre-opt stuff. There have been moments that I have been scared to death and feel like that I should not have to be this drastic to lose the weight. However; my Angel tells me that it I normal for me to think this way.

I knew how much I weight, but I have never really looked at myself until last night. I had someone take pictures of me a month ago and I could not believe how big I have gotten.  I just want to go and hide. Thank goodness that I don’t have that much longer to go before my WLS.

     Just got back yesterday from Louisiana. Me and the kids went down to see my grandparents last Wednesday. I can say that I had a trip from hell. I told my grandmother that I was thinking about WLS and she had a cow. She is eighty-three and thinks that if I wanted to lose weight all I have to just you will power just like I used when I quit smoking. I gave up on trying to explain this to her. There is more to this story, but I just want to forget it all. I’m just glad to just be home and fighting the insurance company. Are should I say the doctors office.

     I called the company yesterday and said that they will have a decision by Friday on the use of an out of network hospital at the in network rates. I am about to go screaming mad all I do is sit and wait. I need a break from my kids. They are on my last nerve.