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A few things:

Went bra shopping. The twins are now a 38C - down from a 42 D.

Walked last night. 2.3 miles outside!!!

The scale really isn't budging lately, but I had another NSV.

I was sitting on the couch at my SIL's last night and crossed my legs! OMG, sat there all comfy like a normal person with  my legs crossed. It was so cool!!!

We walked for 2 hours on the boardwalk last night. Most of it was at a pretty good pace and sometimes we slowed to the "Stacey saunter." 

I cannot believe how much I enjoy walking now and I can't believe how good I feel after.  I could never have done all this walking at 330 pounds. Yes, I was active, but not like I am now. I actually look forward to it.

We're going to some friends for dinner tonight and then it's back to the boardwalk.

So I"m walking outside regularly now with really no problems. I've been walking 1.5 miles each time and am looking to increase that this weekend.

Having a hard time with, what else, food. The scale isn't budging. I guess I really need to track better. Am I not getting enough protein? Or are those nibbles of chocolate and pretzels doing it???

Today is my four month surgiversary!

So much has happened in the past four months, emotionally and physically.

I'm down 88 pounds. Isn't that crazy???? I never thought I could do it. When I first joined OH, I was constantly looking at people's tickers and wondering and hoping that it could happen for me too.

Went to the nail salon to get my nails done.  I had to wait and before the sleeve, I hated sitting in the "waiting" chairs. They're normal sized chairs, but I felt stuffed in them.  had to wait today and I looked at the chairs and wondered if it would still be uncomfortable. I had no problems and my hips weren't pushing through the sides!  

I may not see the weight loss in the mirror, but I see it when I experience these non-scale victories.

Went out to dinner with my dad, stepmother and stepbrother tonight. I felt almost "human" for a while. I was looking at the couples and thinking all sorts of things. 

As much as I was glad to go out, I'm happy to be home.

Had a blah night and am not looking forward to this weekend.

Today is 2 months that Bruce passed away. I have no desire to do anything today, but we're swamped in the office and I have a lot of headaches going on there.  I am going to the doctor this morning to check out the rash thing.

We were supposed to go on our Las Vegas/Grand Canyon trip on Sunday. How he was looking forward to it! Sunday is also the 7th anniversary of our first date.

My SIL wants us to hang out at her house on Saturday night. How many Saturday nights we spent there or here, just being together. Having dinner, watching movies, a few drinks, the usual boring things we did.  The thought of it makes me cringe. While I've been to her house a lot since Bruce died, I really am getting sick of her husband (he's very annoying) and don't want to spend hours in an apartment with him. 

I'm sorry I figured out that I can eat carbs and chocolate. Now I'm fighting the battle with my head not to eat junk. Last night I had quite a few tortilla chips and salsa and didn't get full. I'm getting very upset with myself and feel like I'm failing at this diet thing once again.

The scale is not budging!!

I'm a slave to the scale. I admit it. I get on every morning.  I get on 3 times to be exact and whatever the last weight is, that's what I go by. 

Okay, go ahead and tell me I need help with the scale addiction, but I already know...

 I went to an art festival and walked around for 5 hours. I could not have done this 80 pounds ago.

We had to park and then take a city bus shuttle to the actual fesitval area. When we went last year,  I sat with my sister who is normal sized and we were squished in the seat (made for 2).  Today, we sat comfortably. I said to her, "Ter, you know what?" and she looked at me and smiled and said, "I know, honey" and I just welled up. She said that  Bruce was watching and that he was giving me the thumbs up.