Boy do I owe an update! Well, as of this past friday 12-7 I am 3 months post-op. Things are going really good. I have lost 45 pounds to date. I still feel as though this is a bit lower than where I should be, but who knows. I need to remember that it doesn't matter how long it takes to get to my goal, but that I get there. I can honestly say that I am no longer "mourning food." I actually have to get myself to eat, instead of the opposite. If it weren't necessary I just wouldn't bother with it. lol. I am now going to the gym 3 times a week, and I really love it. I never ever thought i'd say that! I have help from a personal trainer and it is great. Although people have mentioned that they can notice a difference in my size, I really do not see it yet. I feel it in clothing, but personally in the mirror I still see the 290 pound me. Hopefully i'll notice something soon. I can feel my collarbone now though, and that is definitley something that I couldn't do before! Thanksgiving was great, and I had a little bit of everything that I wanted. I'm very excited for christmas and I cannot believe how fast it is coming. I will try to get some pictures up soon and maybe compare them to some old ones to see if I can notice any change that way. I'll also try to update on my progress more!

It's been awhile so I guess I owe an update! Anyways, i'm now five weeks post-op and I thank time for flying now more than any other time! I have had a hard time adjusting (still am a bit). I think I experienced my first taste of dumping syndrome the other night. Ick. I never want to deal with that again! I know that is a laugh though. In time it will again happen.  I ate... well inhaled a piece of deli meat and shortly after I felt it. I know it was because I ate it too fast. Automatically I was like "what the hell did I just do that for---duh!" I was paid back though. Believe me! I got teary eyed, naseaus, my belly hurt so badly, and my heart was racing. No fun! On a lighter note, I went out to dinner for the first time post-op and ordered an appetizer. I still couldn't even eat half of that. I have left-overs still and this was two nights ago! I knew I wouldn't eat hardly any, but really I had a few bites. It kinda bums me out that I can only have a few bites of things. I know in time I will wish I was back in this stage and could only eat this way. I know a few people who wish they were still in their honeymoon stage as it was the time when weight was easiest coming off. Right now i'm ready to be over a year post-op! Haha. I know it will be here in the blink of an eye. I cannot believe it's already been five weeks for me! I have lost 35 pounds so far and still really don't personally physically see it. I feel it in jeans and some other clothes. Others can see a differnce but not me yet.  My boobs are also shrinking. I don't want that to happen! I can tolerate going to a C but I am just a D. Hopefully they stop! I'd much rather the fat on my back melted. In time, in time. I know. It's a time thing, and it's flying!