Today I restarted my weight loss journey it is rather has been a real trip.  Well I started back at the gym ya GYM.  It was so hard to but I did it 1/2 of cardio and little arms weight lifting....I am going 3 days a week until I can get back to 5 days a week my future hubby is joining with me this week to keep his sexy body  in shape did I mention  that he is 6'9" tall.  So he can afford to get some muscle's.lol.... We sister is tired everyone good night...Going to snuggle up with my boo....

So with that having been typed lol. How is everyone I pray the new year bring each of you happiness and peace.  I am living my life at my second job working hardly.lol  I am still in love even more crazy as that might seem or sound out loud we are staying home for new year with my now 21 yr. old son.  Cooking a little munchy food.  I have not lost another pound 240 holding but  I am OK with that not.. My anniver is coming 2/9/12 and I am having thyroid remove on the 2/10/12 So happy anniver to me.  I should be 210/220 by now but I am not hitting the gym as hard as I once did tired but ai am planning to go today.  Pray for me have not been for 2 months ya love did it to me and lack of sleep working to much two jobs and grad school.  But with the new year tomorrow I am recommitting to me plus I miss the feeling of sweating it out the stress of life.  y son applied to 4 medical school and two turned him down I feel so bad for him.  But he is applying to grad school as his back up then reapply next year.  I am so proud of him he is my everything.  Now on to my man he is still wonderful towards me and the sex life is awesome.  I am planning to have tummy tuck in the spring gives me some time to lose more weight.  I am in therapy now once a week not sure if I need to be but it feels so right.  OK no one get on me about my writing skills  I am sleep deprived and hung over last night was date night and drinking when we got in from movie and dinner.  I am able to get more now but not a whole lot at once.  My life has changed for the better thank god for this surgery and Dr. Sadek.  I thought I would be half of what I was but I know if I do the work i will be I m 50 pound from my want to weight.  Yet for me I m healthy in size 16/18 from 26/28 so I am so happy.   I am in love with me and have a good man next to me who love my extra skin and tummy so to all that think its not possible it is trust in yourself and do it all for you.  Happy in love in NJ.  Maybe soon I will be telling u guy's I got married to my lover best friend Ron.   This is life on my terms how about that my terms.....

It's been a minute since I written on here I miss everyone.  I am still hitting the gym and working out weight loss has slowed down but it's because I am eating more lol if that is possible.  I am happy so let me tell how crazy my life has been the last month I meet an old childhood friend from 30 yrs ago.  We grow up next door to each other he was my first crush lol.  now fast forward to now we are can say living together crazy as that might seem.  My 20 yrs old is not to pleased but hey it's my life and I am happy he is a good man towards me.  He is in recovery and I still worry that he might relapse but I am going to believe he wants to remain sober its a daily choice.  Anyway I am happy today and today is all that matter right lol.  We have fun together both in mid life lol the 40's.  So today I made a decision to not live in fear of another failed relationship.  It's so nice to have a partner that talks to me and shares his feelings.  I pray for him to find a peace in his life I am talking about that internal peace.  I can't explain it any better then to say life can be all that you (we) desire.  I am at a point in my life to be at peace and living for me even if I don't lose another pound i am down 122 lbs I am 238lbs wow ......My boo is the sweetest man I am so enjoying him in my life all 6'8" of him...

Hi everyone it's been some time since I've been on the site wow life is so crazy right now.  i am dating (sexing) a old childhood friend he is a tall man and old friend.  But enough about him it's crazy in my world right not still in grad school but on line this semester.  I am down to 248 wow weeee I am just getting back from visiting Cornell and Canada (for the weekend) for my son he is graduating from college 2012 and applying to become Vet doctor.  I am so happy I started getting this weight off my engo said 200 lbs will be good for me I say no I want 180lbs half of what  I was last year. 
Well the trucker is still on the road and the other guy we are on chill he pissed me off when he did not go on the boat ride after I brought the tickets trying to treat him special as he did towards me.  So we had few words and I told him I can not do this even thought now I am missing him.  I text-ed him today to say hi but so far no response. 
When I got back from Canada right away I showered changed my clothes and went to my can I call him boyfriend no he just got out of relationship with a gf of 4yrs but I living for today and enjoying what ever this is.  He and I will define it he asked me if I would still see him if he went back to her I had no answer.  I am living for this moment I visited my husband on 8/1/11.  I stayed the night with him and the sex was good but I am no longer in love with him.  I know understand how people say they love there ex but no long in-love with him.  It's sad but life goes on and I am still his friend for life he gave me our son.  But back to sex it is so great now that I am I am 110 lbs off my body I can't wait until this last 50 lbs to 70lbs and my tummy tuck.  He is supportive but in a friendship kind of way. 
I went to NYC yesterday afternoon with a girlfriend she went to see a plastic surgeon Dr. Micheal Jones and she is getting butt job done I think this month.  I told her I would be there for her since she wants the surgery.   Life is good right now I am going to a party this fridays and saturday new group of friends meeting for the first time.  I been having an awesome summer a new lover (old lover), hanging with friends and traveling life is good....Be blessed  Ps you guys can leave a comment or two darn....lol

Well I told you how I met a guy named David and another guy on  July 1 in NYC at this club we end up meeting again for dinner on my Birthday 7/8 he took me to this expensive restaurant called The Palm he was very luck I am such a cheap date.  This restaurant was so expensive I had a great time.  Oh PS is government name is Youssouf not David he explained to me how the name thing to me he is so sweet and age check 32 not 27 it's a little better.  Then the next day I went to meet up with the other guy his name is Abdul also African for dancing in NYC.  We meet at a BBW party in lower east side lets just say he looked so good but hear this ladies he said after he brought my drink he did not have any money to go to another club so I was with friends and did not drive so we left him.  He later text ed me this long long to long message how I was wrong to leave I explained to him that I offered him a ride to hang out but because he had no money he could not go.  Get this after all that he still wanted to go out with me but I told him I was not interested because he does not know how to treat a lady.  So I ended it before it began ladies I was kind. 
No back to my dating Dre the trucker the heavy guy he has me mentally so open to him even though in the past he was not psychically my type.   But he has me so open to him.   Now Youssof we went out last night our plans were change because sister girl cold not find 42 n st after taking the wrong tunnel into NYC.   We recovered after I had to get off the phone because I was going to lose it.   We went to a movie in Bronx we saw Bad Boss highly recommend the movie.  Afterward we went back to his place and the rest lets just say sister girl is happy.  I know it was only the second date but dam it so what I enjoyed what ever we are having now.  The funny thing of it is the trucker is the one that has me open mentally but Youssof is the one that I am having sex with go figure.  He told me he like what he sees as in my body.  How about that before the needed tummy tuck and let's just say this after 100 lbs loss sister girl needs it lol... He is coming out here to NJ this Friday night who knows what will happened between us may love or just lust but I am happy and that is all that matters.  Oh before I forget he is Muslin I really do not understand the religion but he tells me he pray 5 times a day and a few other intimate details that I'm not put on here.  But I am Christian but he told me we both believe in God that is all that matters.  I like both of these men so let's see what happened this summer....Sister girl out....