I have been over weight pretty much my whole life. I only remember being thin from photos when I was 3 and I'm 41. I grew up in a family where if there was any event we ate, it didn't matter if it was a birthday or a death. Holidays were full of nothing but eating and more eating, from morning to bed time. My father is tall and thin and my mother was barley 5 foot and never really was to heavy, but did battle all the time to with her weight. I can't recall being under 200lbs ever. when I graduated high school I was at 270 and after marring at 19 I started my way up the scale. my 25 I weighed 420 and at my heaviest weighed 460. when I was 28 I decided to lose, and it was hard! but I got down to 320, but I was starving!! in 2005 I was told I had diabetes and I was devastated! I lost my mother the year before to heart disease and I thought I can't die to. I jumped and started eating right and exercising every day and was doing really good and got down to 270, but I was STARVING the whole time. I hurt my knee in 2007 and from there I started climbing back up the ladder. slowly I lost the my will power and decided that food was what made me happy and I was just going to eat what I waited and take my shot's and deal with it. in march of 2011 I thought I was having a stoke, because I lost my memory for an hour, they never confirmed that, but for 2 month's I had a headache that would not go away with even the best medication and then the depression, anxiety, and fear set in, and when I finally started feeling better, I thought this is it, I finally have enough money to have surgery done and I'm going to have it done! I started asking friends that had it done, what, where, and who, and decided to go with weight wise in Oklahoma, Oklahoma. I was sacred to death and the process was hard for me to hand in there to get to my surgery date, but I did it, and on November 22ND I had my surgery. when I first started my plan it was September 24Th 2011 and I'm now 2 months out from my surgery and I have lost a total of a little over 80lbs. I'm feeling better and I'm back to where my stared when I fell off the wagon 4 years ago. I no longer take medication for ANYTHING! Other than the vitamins, and I feel great. I still have my moments of trying to know what not being hungry feels like. But I know that in a few months I will start to understand and see a person that I don't even remember and then finally a person that I have never EVER seen before and that is so exciting! I'm looking forward to the future!