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Serious, gets to the point but also thorough and professional. I have a lot of confidence in him. And, I did get him to smile when he commented that he was impressed I lost 40 lbs. and I corrected him to remind him I actually lost 41 lbs.!
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Was about to get back on that "Here We Go Again" roller coaster by going back to the VLCD (Very Low Calorie Diet) - you know, the Medically Supervised/No Solid Food one... did it 7 years ago and lost 201 lbs. in 9 months.† And now, here I am only 8 lbs. from my highest weight of 401.† When I spoke with staff at the program and told them I was considering that or WLS they encouraged me to seriously consider the WLS.† It's something I've pondered for a few years as the weight was coming back on so I've taken some time to think, research, consider, research, think, consider... and, well, I'm ready.
Spoke to my PCP last week and he's putting together the referral letter to the UCSF program.† Although I know UCSF is a good hospital I don't like the fact that I don't have any choices - my insurance will ONLY cover bariatric surgery at UCSF.
I have all the other required information ready and as soon as I get the letter from my PCP my request to be evaluated for surgery will be in the mail.† And then, based on everything I've read, I guess I'm ready to begin that "waiting game".
Would appreciate hearing from others, particularly anyone with Blue Cross PPO and had their surgery at UCSF.† I would also be curious hearing from some people who are 5-10 years out.† And, of course, anyone else who is willing/able to take some time to provide support is most welcome to contact me.
May 23, 2006
I had one those "moments" today.† Many of you know, I'm sure - the OMG I'm not gonna fit moment????† I had some pulmonary function tests scheduled.† I got there and first off she wanted to weigh me.† I took one look at her scale that maxes out at 350 and chuckled saying "well, I can tell you now this is never gonna work". She said "are you sure, let's try".† Uh huh... like I don't know after being conscious of every ounce of weight on my body since I was first told I was "fat" at age 7.† Knowing that I'm at 393 today I placated her and showed her it didn't work.† Then - imagine this - there was this circular plastic container and she thought I was going to fit INSIDE.† Of course, I proceeded to sit inside it, and she proceeded to try to push the door shut even though my knees were CLEARLY 6" outside the closure.†
Yes, I can "chuckle" at these moments in retrospect, but they are always demoralizing, embarassing if not absolutely mortifying, and ultimately destructive to my sense-of-self.† I'm so ready for things to be different.
8/23/06 - I have a date!!!!!!!!† SEPTEMBER 26.† After getting through the cardiac cath (it was a false positive stress test so there was no blockage) and my PCP getting all the paperwork submitted I had my follow-up appointment with the surgeon today.† I started at 443, my goad was to lose 33 lbs. before this appointment and I lost 41 so he was very happy.† So, I'm scheduled for a laparoscopic RNY on 9/26/06.† All very good news!
9/20/06 - Wow... time is flying!!!† Six days and I'll be a loser!!† Went to my first support group meeting tonight and I have to say I wasn't particularly impressed although I'm sure I will continue to do it and try to focus on the "principles" and not the "personalities".† I weighed myself while at the hospital and I've lost another 7 lbs. - below the 400 mark!!† Down 47 lbs. now and hopefully that is going to contribute to an easier surgery.† Oh yeah, I'd be lying if I didn't say that I have moments when I feel very scared, moments (a few times a day) when I question if I'm doing the right thing, etc...† but, overall, I know it's the right thing for me and, without a doubt, it's the right decision.†
Figuring out what, when, how to eat has been a bit of a challenge.† I haven't dumped, haven't vomited, but have had some times that I felt like I was WAY overflowing on a small amount of pureed food.
And then, there's the weight change.† I'm down a little more than 25 lbs. since the surgery and down almost 76 lbs. since I started this whole adventure at the end of May.† I feel so much lighter when walking - I took a nice brisk mile long walk today with no pain in my ankles, hips, knees or back!!† That, in itself, makes this surgery all worth it in my book.
Life is good!!!