So I had surgery 2/12. Starting in January my periods started coming every 36-37 days instead of every 31 like they used to. But I had an IUD in place, so no worries. I chalked it up to the pre-surgery weight loss and the stress of impending surgery. Then at the end of March, I noticed my IUD was missing! My GYN did an ultrasound to confirm and said it could have 1. "Slipped out" or 2.MIGRATED INTO MY ABDOMEN!! X-Ray needed!

I had a CT scan scheduled for a follow-up from when I HAD cancer, so they said to minimize radiation I could just get the CT done, even if the Paragard had went floating through my body it was NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT???

So my S.O started using the withdraw method. Since my periods had become 37 days long cycles, I expected it around the 25th of April. So I should have O'ed around the 10th. On the 18th, S.O and I figured it was "safe" not to pull out since my ovulation should have been well over. Well, the 25th has come and gone. So on the 26th I tested with an Equate. LIGHT second blue line. Waited until the next morning. Tested with the second Equate. ANOTHER light blue line. Ran out to the store and bought a Clearblue +... a light blue plus sign!!!!

Blue dye tests get a bad rap for false positives (evaps), even when the results come up right away... so I'm not 100%, although having been pregnant 6 times before, (I have 5 children already)... I am starting to believe I am (although very early yet).

I am FREAKING OUT! I already have FIVE CHILDREN and my youngest JUST turned 2!! Three of them aren't even 5 yet! For one, I am seriously peeved at the IUD... how, after more than a year, does it just "disappear"?? Why would I have ovulated sooooo freaking late in my cycle? AND WHY, for the LOVE OF GOD, would my body think NOW was a good time???

Pregnancy this soon after surgery... so many fears! Nutrition, continued weight loss, that new gym membership...

Blood work tomorrow to confirm yes or ease my fears... but I think it's going to just be confirming. Three tests are unlikely to be wrong, right? Has anyone else been here this soon after surgery?

So I'm two weeks post op... and I have lost 30 pounds already from when I left the hospital!!!! Total since I started this journey... 50 pounds! I can see the change already. This is NOT an easy way out though, let me tell you! Wanting to emotionally eat is still something I struggle with, and I have been pretty light headed lately but I think it is because I need my blood pressure medication lowered. I WILL be under 300 pounds by the time I reach a month out, and it will be the first time in ten years that I will have been under that weight! Last time I was under 300 pounds I was 22!!!

My stomach cramps some times, and if I eat too fast or too much it HURTS but it is teaching me to slow down and watch for signals of fullness. I can't wait until I can eat "real" foods again, though. I am probably only taking in at most 500 calories a day right now, and even that is a high guess. But hey, I don't feel too bad so I guess it is okay. Gonna start walking more, and as soon as I get my doctor's okay I am joining Gold's gym to start weight training and swimming. Def serious about reaching my goal weight... preferably in 6-8 months.

After, I plan to do reconstructive surgery and then tat over the scars. So in two years hopefully I will be looking and feeling better. This is something I really wanted, and seeing the weight come off so quickly is really making it worth it for me, even though it's not easy. Can't wait to hear people tell me I am beautiful, and not "oh you have such a pretty face." Can't wait till I can run around with my children without getting winded. I already have great sex but I'm sure after it will be a lot better! So yeah... I'm starting to appreciate my decision to do this a lot more.

So I went in for surgery Tuesday morning and came home Thursday because I was having some excessive pain. Ended up back in the ER on Friday because the pain in my chest and shoulder/neck was pretty intense, but I also was having a low grade fever. Spent the entire night in the ER getting pain medications, an x-ray, ekg's, blood work, and a CT scan. Dr. Meyers came in to see me Saturday morning, and found that the cause of all my pain was my spleen. The spleen and stomach share some major arteries, and he had cut off blood supply to my spleen when cutting my stomach, and about 5% of my spleen is now dying. It is listed as a complication of gastric sleeve, but I hadn't read about it prior to it happening to me. So right now I'm still in some pain, but Dr. Meyers was great and even gave me his cell phone number so I could reach him directly in case the pain or fever got worse. So far... things are getting better.

I have been pretty nauseous lately, and I wake up in the morning with protein after taste in my mouth which is not helping with the nausea! I know I'm not getting in enough liquids right now but I'm trying. I am still on mostly clear bari fluids because the gas pain is still there, and I don't feel much like eating/drinking anything else other than the protein shakes but those are leaving that nasty after taste so I realize protein intake may become problematic for me. I have been feeling pretty weak, also, but I think it's lack of calories/liquids.

I'm not even a week out, and I'm not feeling too bad, even with the splenic infarct. I have already had sex, and have been walking A LOT! I already dropped the ten pounds I gained in the hospital from the fluids and gas, and an additional four pounds. In less than a week. So I'm happy about that. Can't wait to get to pureed tuna fish and baby food stage. LOL :)