ObesityHelp

Well after losing 62 lbs so far I have a couple non scale victories :) I can sop in a regular sz clothing store for tops and dresses. Pants, im still in a plus sz, because I carry all my weight in the middle...very annoying!!! Im now in a 38 bra, not a 42 thats super tight and leaves red marks, but just a regular sized bra  hooray. I can bend down! In fact while driving my itchy bug bite on my foot was annoying, and you know what I did, i bent my knee, put it up on the seat and scratched it. I would have never been able to bend my body like that before.  I can paint my toe nails without holding my breath and hurting my ribs. I dont look pregnant anymore!  I have sh!t loads of energy, and am taking care of myself really well. To anyone out there hesitant about their upcoming surgery...its worth it. I havnt had any complications, but even if I do, it will still be worth it !!

OMG my bmi is 32. I was in american eagle yesterday and fit in an xl dress!!! I have to say I still have my fat moments. I was so nervous walking into a change room asking to try on a dress. In my mind im still too fat to walk in a normal size store, and am visioning everyone looking and thinking to themselves "who is she kidding?"

The last time I weighed under 230 lbs I was a teenager.

I feel like crap. Im sick all the time...no vomiting, just feel sick. i cant eat more than about 3 tbsp a day. and i cant get protein shakes in me. im basically drinking clear stuff, and having a cup of soy milk a day, and thats it. I had a reaction to the antibiotics they gave me wednesday, and ended up in the er with lots of pain cramping, cat scan showed everything fine. yay. dr said he wasnt concerned about incision. but now today its really red...ugh 

right now, im regretting my choice

Having issues with my larger incision and hoping to get that delt with, and also it would be nice if i could take a crap! Im so jealous of reading all these people who were able to walk around pain free 1 week post op, and even go back to work. Im starting to think the DR did something different to me :(  Im not having buyers remorse, I know it will get better, but i just feel like shit shitty shit shit. I cant sleep, and when i do Im waking up at east 6 times a night with crazy dreams too. I think the only thing Im doing right is getting enough water in. In fact i can take big sips now without feeling uncomfortable.....I hope that's not abnormal too. As a side note, I have the best 12 year old daughter in the world. shes always filling my cup, helping me out of bed ( stil cant even do that on my own!) puts my socks on, cleans, and even tucks in her 5 yr old brother for me :) My dad is a huge support too, hes been doing all of out laundry, dishes, beds, homework help bus stops, car repairs and all those damn errands. hes great, I dont know what I would do without him !

Felling very blah!!!! Im still really sore, hate sleeping on my back, walking hurts, I cant poop, no desire to eat. But ive lost 23lbs, and that keeps me going. :)