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I'm a little frustrated.  I went to the mall today, of course I made a bee-line to Lane Bryant after leaving Macy's.  I need new jeans....and guess what....even the smallest size is a little too big.  I usually like my jeans skin tight.  I wandered aimlessly through the mall, not sure what store to go into.  A little ashamed to go into regular stores b/c I don't want them looking at me funny.  

I may have mentioned this, but the other day a few women at my job were dissing fat people out loud.  I was appalled and just as I was revving up my engine to read them the Riot Act they looked to me to join in and laugh.  Of course I asked them why they thought that was funny and can't they see me standing here.  They said I'm not fat.....but I am.  

I'm looking at my new pics, at least the ones that have shown up so far, and I'm still fat.  Then I look at the other pics on my pc and I'm eons away from where I started.  Thank God for this tool and I pray He gives me the courage to post more before pics.  Y'all wouldn't even think it was me if you saw them. 

Okkk I'm trippin'.  I'm not losing my hair.  It was just the normal shedding you get when you dont comb your hair for 2 months while it's in braids  (sigh of relief.  I'm not saying I'm Pocahontas, but I like to keep my hair healthy and patches of missing hair won't go well with patches of discolored skin (lifelong eczema sufferer). 

So anywho, I really had a perfect diet day.  By diet I don't mean I'm on a diet, just the way I eat.  I got in over 100g protein with only one shake, the rest was food.  I'm consistently getting in over 1000 calories and I hate it!  I guess I couldn't eat 500 calories forever.    That sounds so stupid because that's how much PEOPLE eat!  I'm human and 1000 calories...heck 1200 calories is perfectly reasonable.  When I was on the 6 month supervised diet I was evil as a rattlesnake trying to ONLY eat 1200 calories.  

So I think I broke that month-long stall for sure.  My folks were starting to nag me about losing more weight.  They are convinced I've lost all I'm going to lose and now I'm going to start gaining again.....even though they haven't seen me in over a month   It's good to know that they're rooting for me LOL!  You gotta love them.  I talk to both of my parents at least 3 times a day and it stands to reason that they would think that considering how much I bitched and moaned about that stall.

I have 8 more pounds until I reach the Century Club.  I SAID.....I HAVE 8 MORE POUNDS UNTIL I'M IN THE CENTURY CLUB.  One hundred pounds from my highest weight, not since surgery...but I'm not doing all that crap...I'm counting my loss from my highest weight b/c I had to do the work and suffering to loose it. 

I had something else to tell y'all, but I forget now.  Not signing on during the workday is really killing my blog.  I'm going to post those pics as soon as I get them off my friend's camera...or get my film developed, whichever comes first.  I promise I'll have them posted by the end of the week.  

I just caught a glimpse of my pre-op photo uploaded on 8/29...I still can't believe that's me.  WLS is the best thing I could have ever done for myself.  

I took some more pics this weekend.  I'll post them in a few.  I haven't lost that much more weights, but I'm still happy with my look.  

I noticed I'm eating more carbs.  I just can't stop myself....nuts, fruit, veggies, oh, and candy corn.  I'm back on that stuff and can't get the monkey off my back.  I have to avoid the candy corn displays all together b/c if I get close enough to see the "made from real honey" label on the bag it's a wrap! 

I think I'm losing my hair.  I took my braids out and a young afro came out with them.    i'm talking about a whole bathroom trashcan of hair.  That's never happened before.  It's time to take new pics, but not until I figure out what to do with my hair.  

I've increased my protein to an obcene 100+ grams on most days.  I'm starting to get tired of counting this that and the other, so I pretty much have two protein shakes a day with 35-40g protein each so I can think about other things and not be chained to Fitday all day.  My weightloss has slowed down, but I'm still losing inches.

About the gym.  Even though I lost the most weight, I didn't lose the highest percentage, so I fell in 3rd place.  Now, if I'm not mistaken, 3rd place was to win $100 cash, gym gear, and 6 mos. free.  In reality, I only won 6 mos. free added onto the end of my contract.  I'm not ungrateful for that, but that was not the agreement.