Playing Catch Up, Update

Jul 11, 2014

Wow I didn't realize how long it had been since I have been on OH. Life and work have been so busy that there wasn't any time to spend here reading posts or updating all that has happened. Since my last post in May. I have completed all my testing, my psych eval, my three month diet program required by my insurance and gotten my cpap machine for my sleep apnea. I didn't lose as much weight as I had hoped to during my 3 months but hey 10 lbs is 10lbs. Hormones play a big role in my system evidently or the lack there of.  I was doing low carb and doing well at eating the right things and going to support group to prepare myself but for some reason the weight just wasn't falling off like it did before. I tried not to stress over it as my nutritionist said just keep doing it and it will all come together.SO I just kept doing what I was doing.

Meanwhile I spent some time in the ER with my wife and I wondering if I was having a heart attack.I woke up on the morning of June 4th with my left arm throbbing, horrible headache and nauseated beyond belief. I got up and figured it was just a bad morning. I don't have high BP, or overly high cholesterol and Ive never had an issue with my heart. So I decided to go in to work anyway and just tough it out, due to not having much leave time left. I've used it all to deal with my appts for WLS. Well I never even got to get on the phone, I got dizzy and my legs started feeling like jelly and so weak. At that point my boss and Holly decided to take me downstairs to the nurse our office keeps on staff. She advised me to go to the er if i couldn't get in with my primary physician. My primary was full that day and evidently didn't seem to think it too important to see me or work me in due to my symptoms. Needless to say he is no longer my primary Dr. SO long story short, I went to the ER where they poked, prodded, played vampire, ran test after test and still couldn't tell me what was happening to me. I wasn't having a heart attack tho that they assured me of. They referred me to a cardiac Dr. Who set me up for a stress test. Man was that a trip. Such a weird feeling watching them shoot radiation into your arm and then put you in a weird machine to take pics of your heart. Then sit you in a waiting room for a bit and shoot some other strange thing in your veins to speed up your heart. That was a wild ride and one I care not to repeat! Results of the test were inconclusive basically they saw some shadow in the pics but that is all. Dr said honestly it could simply be my boobs as I am well endowed. LOL But that there was nothing to be worried about just keep working on getting my cholesterol numbers down.

Bringing home a CPAP machine has been a wild ride as well. I can't seem to get accustomed to having something shooting air down my throat and waking up with something tight on my face. Twice now during the night I've ripped it off my face in a panic. I've only had it 5 days as of today. Everyone keeps telling me it will get easier and I will feel much better after I truly start getting restful sleep. I've promised myself to keep trying and wear it every night. But it feels like there is an octopus sleeping on my face! And so far I still feel the same as I did before but with less painful headaches in the morning. I'm hoping with a few more days I will wake up with No headache at all. The dryness it causes in my mouth bothers me too as I drink water through the night. I've raised up the humidity in my machine but it still does it. Wearing the chin strap is no fun. I feel so trapped by the time I have all the gear on. And Lord knows its not attractive! My darlin wife must love me a lot to deal with all that hanging off my face. LOL I just keep reminding myself that one day at a time is all I have to do, or in this case one night at a time.

The other thing I have been dealing with is I had a minor outpatient surgery on the 9th of July. My gynecologist had to remove some polyps that had grown on my Uterus. Luckily they were not cancerous. This was a surgery that would not have had to happen if my Insurance company had approved her removing my uterus last year when she removed my ovaries. I was 50 at the time of that surgery I certainly didn't need my uterus anymore. But the insurance company actually told my Dr. (she called them to haggle it out) That since my uterus didn't make Testosterone Not to remove it! Insane reason to leave it. I had tumors all in my ovaries that was causing abnormal levels of testosterone in my body. Which was causing male patterned baldness in me and making hair grow in places women never want hair! But please insurance company let me leave my uterus so i can have  more surgery in my future.. UGH.. so stupid. SO That surgery was this past week and now it looks like I'm headed for the big one!

Friday morning I got the call from Dallas, the lovely lady that works at Centennial Medical Center that My Insurance had approved my Gastric  Sleeve! I have already set up my appointment to see Dr. Olsen and get my surgery date. His nurse has said that it could be as soon as late July or early August! I can't believe it! With the realization that I could be post op within the next month also brings about a lot of nervousness. Not about the Surgery itself but about handling everything afterwards. I promised myself that I would do everything I could to succeed in this endeavor for a new healthier me. I plan to do just that. But part of me is saying what if I fail? What if I cant resist the craving in my head? Why go through all this just to fail again at keeping the weight off?  My best friend always tells me to Not suffer future pain. It hasn't happened yet so don't suffer the pain of something that may not ever happen.  She's right I know. But I am a worry wart.  The only thing that can derail my surgery now is money. I am hoping my co pay wont be out of reach for this surgery after going through everything the last few months. But I'm keeping the faith that everything is happening the way its supposed to. I'm not giving up!

I hope everyone reaches their goals of a happy healthy life.. I know I am on my way!

Be Well til next time ~Suna

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