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Well, this is what I have learned.  It isn't for everyone but it makes me happy.  I keep track of my water intake, my food intake and my weight.  I know how much my clothes weigh, too.  Yeah, they may be a total of 4 or 5 lbs, but it makes me happy to know where I am.

Right now I am at 221.8 this morning.  I try to weigh in the morning but sometimes I don't get to.  That's a low.  If I weigh fully dressed after I eat and drink in the afternoon, it is plus 4 or 5 lbs, so I always subtract.

When I had my period, I didn't really lose ANYTHING.  I reminded myself that this always happens, and for some reason my body just holds on to some weight like it was gold.  I reassured myself that when my period was over, I would lose something.  It was hard because for 2 weeks the needle didn't move on the scale!

Then the last day came and by a miracle I dropped 4 lbs.  I don't know why I do this, but before I had gotten discouraged and stopped with my efforts and fell off the wagon and didn't come back.  This time I acted like nothing was going wrong and knew I was still losing and my body was LYING!  So, yea!  Paid off.

I hope to be entering the teen range soon then finally after 4 years into onederland.  That would be so fantastic!

I have also noticed that the excersize isn't really doing anything to lose weight (unless I kill myself doing it and I don't always feel like doing that).  If I want to lose I have to eat less.  No way around it.  So, I am eating less and excersizing and that is working for now.  It is not hard excersize but I look toned which makes me happy.  Reduced food is the way to go.

Yaa!  Finally got it figured out for my body, and just before my 42th birthday!

Hey, CarmelCandy smacked me around and got me to realize being back on the wagon is where a girl outta be :)  Thanks, Girl!

I am doing that thing.  God put me in a job where until the end of the year I will be getting off work at 11pm.  This means when I am off work no one is around and I can't do anything except maybe go home and watch TV or be sad and eat.  OR I could just go to the first level and hit the gym for a few hours, have the whole place to myself, listen to the radio and work out at my own pace.

And enjoy a better body that doesn't get tired as much, needs new clothes and turns more heads.

Hmm.  Decisions, decisions.  :D

I bought new tennis shoes.  I think I had my old ones since Jr high.  If not, it wasn't long after that.  Anyway, the old ones were size 8.5.  These new ones are size 7.5.  I think that may be the last thing from my old wardrobe that I was wearing before the weight loss.  I still have them.  Can't bring myself to throw them out yet.

Working out is fun.  If I don't do it I kinda get testy and antsy and have all this energy waiting to jump out of me with no outlet.  I am doing it for the sake of humanity.  It is a mercy effort.

I still hate that I am all jiggly in places.  I have what I call pregnancy thighs.  The fronts of my legs look like they are both pregnant and no lie, they are maybe what is keeping me in a size 18 when I am sure my waist could accomodate something smaller.  Well, there is an extra line in my legs now.  I am excited.  The pregnancy issue no longer goes all the way down to my knees, but there's about 4 inches above it where it is smaller. 

I also started seeing stretch marks on my lower arms.  Now, I know they aren't pretty, but I am dang excited.  I have lost enough to see stretch marks!  WOOHOO! 

I am most looking forward to getting my clavical bumps back.  I know I had them before, and I know I weighed as little as 202 so they are 20 lbs within reach.

I am working on this because I want to get my panulectimy done as well as my breast reduction.  I don't want to do that and then lose 80 more lbs, so I am doing that first.  I have wanted it for about 4 years now and I am finally getting around to doing it.

Bonus.  I am quite happy.

You know, I know I probably hit the gym pretty hard.  About an hour weight lifting in various forms, then 3 rounds of 40 minutes on the tread mill.  If I go 2 hours straight, I get sore and don't lose as much.  Go figure.  But, when I am walking on the tread mill I can imagine myself that I am already at my goal weight and there isn't anything I am trying to do but keep the ball rolling.  It makes me happy.  :)

I am not one that thinks she will be happier when she is smaller.  I am happy already, only by the grace of God.  I will be able to wear clothes I want to when I am smaller and jump up and down easier.  Really, I am happy that I can still walk and feel the sun on my face.  There are some that can't.  :(

But, I can. :)

Ok.  Here is the deal.  I had surgery about 4 years ago now.  Lost a lot of weight but still not happy with where I am.  So, I have decided to do the old fashioned thing called dieting.  Yeah, I was scared, too.

My lowest weight was 202 and I was so excited that I was going to enter one-derland.  Then stress happened and I started to gain.  Two weeks ago when I stepped on the scale I was at 244.  That's too close to 250 where I knew I was never going to be again.

So, I have decided to dedicate myself to getting everything off I don't want.  I set the goal at 140lbs and I want to see how close I can get to that in 6 months.  I started excersizing this past Monday and have had some great results.  I am also doing reduced calorie so the DS is really helping with that because I have to eat smaller portions anyway.  I am just trying to make better food choices that will keep me full longer.

As a DS patient, you kinda get lazy as time goes on.  Four years is a long time and I am so glad the weight has not come back, but it tries to send me post cards telling me it misses me!  We tend to have the same kinds of meals we did have before the surgery but it just takes us longer to eat them.  I know with me I will eat and then have to wait for maybe 10 minutes to a half hour and finish the larger meal.  I am going to stop that craziness.

Right now I am at about 230, so I am super happy about the weight loss in two weeks.  I decided to start keeping the blog again because I need to keep track of myself to have success.

Ok, this is a wow moment if there ever was one.

Saturday I was at services.  At least once a month we take the Torah out and parade it around.  We as a congregation line up around the walls so we can touch it with our prayer books or our Bibles.  Well, I was lined up and when the rabbi came past he stopped and he said, 

"Wow! I like your hair!  You look great!  Really nice!"

Well, it was a little embarrassing, because he doesn't really talk when he's doing that.  Someone is carrying the Torah, and he's walking in front of them.  Someone else is usually walking along with them.  If he says anything, it is to people that may quietly say something to him while he's walking.  He usually replies quietly back. 

This time I think he said it loud enough for the whole church to hear!  I just said thank you and slipped over to the piano where I could sit behind it all safe :)  

I also know it wasn't just my hair :)