Seems that I love roller coasters on life. One of my favorite things in the world to do is ride them. So when I went to Six Flags last fall, it was very disappointing to me to not be able to ride them. My weight had been ballooning up for a while. The look of disapppointment in  my son's eye should have been enough for me to stop my path of destruction right then and there, however, I used the sadness of it to eat more. I find myself now face with the need for a revision. 2 years and 8 months out and i have gained back every single pound.

I'm writing here today, not as a plea for sympathy. In fact, I don't care if anybody reads this or not. Instead, I'm writing here today for me. I need to find my success again. I need to stop being alive and start living again. Today is just 1 day. Tomorrow I see the cardiologist for my stress test. Once I have his clearance and the the pulmonary dr's, I should be set for surgery. I'll probably be ready to go by October. Until then, I want to make an all out effort to keep track of myself. This site helped me in the past. Then i walked away. Today is a home coming. Kinda like the roller coaster coming back to the start. Hopefully I can make this ride more fun.

It's been a long time since my surgery. At first everything seemed so easy and smooth that I thought for sure I was gonna be a steady 225 for the rest of my life. After a couple stalls in the spring of 2010, I was on to smooth sailing and by sept 2010, I was down 70lbs and was under 300 for the first time in year. However, I had knee surgery and I've been on a downward spiral ever since. I've gained back 40 lbs and I don't know what to do anymore. If there is anybody that can help me, please I'm begging. I feel like I am going do die and I am slowly killing myself and I can't seem to stop.

Well here I am, 21 months later. I wish I could tell you I'm down 110 lbs and I look and feel better then ever, but I can't. Surgery was a huge waste of time. I haven't lost any weight. My eating is out of control. I've completely given up on support groups, on diet, on exercise. I wish I had listened to people that told me RNY was the way to go. I thought I had all the answers, now I just have negative thoughts. I feel lke the biggest failure ever.

I really could use some advice. I haven't lost anything in over a month. I can't seem to get back on track as far as a diet goes and I'm eating everything, and surprisingly, it all goes down. I'm starting to fall into a depression about this since I was doing so well before. This is a serious setback in my eyes! Any advice?

2 weeks and 2 days and it seems like an eternity. Everywhere I go now, seems like someone comments on how good I look anymore. This is part of my downfall. For some reason the positive feedback allows me to think that I have reached some goal. I have found myself sabotageing myself lately and justifying it. It doesn't help that I work around food all day, which allows me to graze. I find myself putting a little bite here and a little bite there. I haven't even been cleared to eat soft foods yet, but I have puked up chicken several times in 2 weeks. I understand, we all make mistakes in this process, but 2 weeks out! I thought I was becoming an expert on how to do this right, but I'm learning everyday is a struggle. Please, if any of you have had similar problems, let me know and tell me what you did to get past this. I almost feel like I hate having my band in even though its saving my life.