well Im almost 5 months out and the scale read 199.0 today, i was soo excited to break out of the 200's!!

I didnt get to update but on Sept, i had one more surgery, it was to see if i had stricture, which from what the doctor said i didnt, but whatever he did to me really help cause now i am actually able to eat a taco or two with no problems, when before i would eat 2 bites and be full or throw it up..

i still hate food to this day but i know i have to eat!!

the weightloss has been slower but thats good though, cause my skin was starting to be very lose.. my bust area especially.. im sadden to see my boobs are almost just skin with no firmness.. But if all goes well sometime next May i will be doing a "boob job" atleast back to how they use to look..

FYI My birthday is on Halloween and i will be 26!!!!

wohoo!!

35lbs to go, I joined a gym and trying to tighten my skin up!

Im also going back to school now that everythng is falling into place, Id like to reach my goal before my birthday which is on halloween,,

I took alot of pictures as i lose weight but ive been slow on posting them so bare with me, i have to resize them before i can upload them..

I still question myself on wondering if i am still doing okay and if im doing everything okay? but i guess since im still losing weight everything should be okay...

I still threw up alot with some foods, and there is some stuff i do okay..

if you have any questions feel free to ask me..

Well they removed the gallbladder, the doctor said he couldnt believe how i could take the pain.. honestly never really felt it other than i had back pain and nausea in the morning.. My dad was upset because all this time no doctor could tell me what was wrong with me.. They all thought it was in my head for almost over a year.. Im glad Dr. Kim knew what it was immediately, It feels so good to eat and not through it up. Except for eating, of course that feels strange still, and also im frustrated cause i want to eat normal like my friends and i cant.. only little amount at a time or else i will through up.. all i want is a hot dog or burger.. *cries* hehe but its okay though.. I rather reach my weight goal then to eat like i use to and still be overweight.. nothing feels better then skinny!! Sorry no pics at the hospital this time.. I left the camera at home on purpose hehe.. my mom gets photo crazy..

Im healing pretty good, this wasnt nearly as bad as i thought, just another pain in the butt cause i wasnt ready for another surgery. this is day 4 and I feel pretty good, i stopped the pain meds after the first day post op.. I only used it on friday and partially on saturday cause i hate the way it taste..

Yes all of this drama that i have experienced with food turned out that my gallbladder is filled with multiple and large gallstones..

Im having surgery to remove them June 21 and will be off two weeks from work.. I look forward this surgery.. Suppose to take an hour.. Wish me luck!!

Ough! just when i thought everything was okay i hit another wall..

Today i havent been able to keep anything down.. i called the doctor's office and the nurse thinks its my gallbladder and will do a ultra sound tomorrow, so again no drinking past 12am and the appointment is at 10:45..  if its my gallbladder then i will need it removed.. im kinda hoping its not and that its stricture.. Either way both this will need some sort of surgery..

this is soo frustrating.. i just want to be able to drink something and keep it down... im hungry and thirsty..

:(

I'll post a update tomorrow if i get to come home..

Yesterday they finally took out the JP drain and the Staples and I feel SOOOOO much better, I cant believe how much of a difference it makes, although i still cant lay on my side yet, Im sure im just days from being able too.. maybe once the Drain side is healed i will be able too..

Everything is going really good, and food goes down with ease.. Ive enjoyed this experience so far and would do it all over again pain and all.. Even though some things have been a challenge, im happy with the results.. I cant wait till i get down to my weight goal, and i know its only a few months away..

What a wonderful experience..

Wow what a journey this has been!! Surgery took 2 hours..
I was so nervous during the surgery prep.. they stuck a 18 gauge IV in my hand which didnt hurt they injected me to numb it first, but i was shaking not so much because it was cold but because i was every nervous and scared.. I remember seeing 7:30 am and they werent there yet, (my mom said they ended up taking me at 8:30)i kinda remember that they rolled me in the surgery room, i remember people all around me in gowns, and the HUGE light above me they asked me to come over to the operating table, I remember a lady telling me, your going to do to great!! Your in good hands. and then i looked up and they where injecting the IV and then lights out..(from what my mom said they surgery took 2 hours)
I woke up in the recovery room in pain not a  hurt pain but a pressure pain like my boobies where pushing down on my chest and keeping me from breathing.. but it was from the gases they put, i remember there was a person with me at all times. It was a dark room and cold.. I remember asking for pain meds but the guy said no, not until I go to my room. i keep dozing off because it hurt and i rather be asleep then to feel this pressure in my chest.. I remember the guy telling me that my room was ready, but he was training this lady and i remember i was getting frustrated because he was taking to long to  take me. Then finaaly what  seemed like forever he finally starts to roll me out, we go to the waiting area to get my  mom, but i was still on and off with sleep, so everything is kinda blurry. I remember waking up in my room and asking for some pain meds and they brought out the morphine which kicked in fast!! I wanted something to drink but they wouldnt let me for the first 24 hours, but they did give me this swab to moist my mouth which helped ALOT!! Later that day i remember the therapist came in around 3pm asked me to get up from bed and sit down.. and I almost fainted when i got up, what a shock my body took with that.. it was around 6pm that she came in and told me it was time to start walking.. i went and walked half way down the hall and back and i was sooo tired and sore, and more pain meds came..Also the oxygen monitor kept beeping which was annoying. the nurse said that during the surgery my heart rate was in the 50's and while i was in the room the reason the thing kept beeping was that my heart rate was in the 30's which was low.. but i guess i wasnt in danger, it just abnormal i suppose, a normal pulse is in the 80's 90's well the next day toward the evening it went up to the 80's which is good :)

that was how my first day was and i believe the worse part.. the rest of my time there was alot easier and i kept feeling so much better after walking and NO LEAKS!!! wohoo!! :)

Well i survived the preop testing, after they vandalized my wrist for the blood oxygen test, cold chest xray test, the EKG that the lady almost ripped off my lil mole i have on the side when she took off the sticky!, and the blood lab and pee test..

I was advised to be there at 5:30 in the morning for prep and my surgery should begin at 7:30 am, should last an hour, and then i will be in the recovery room for another hour with no visitors, after that i will be going to my room where i can see my family and my b/f..

I cant wait to take up and know i made it finally to the losers bench!! 
 i was told i will have the cath in until noon the next day after the leak test, and then i will probably go home on the 2nd day after surgery in the evening, but i will go home with the novacan (sp?) pump to numb my abs to reduce the pain, and also "bobby" the  JP Drain that will be following me for 7-10 days.. not too excited about that part, and i differently wasnt excited to hear that i have to remove the two tubes from the pain pump myself.. eeewww!! I will probably have my mom help me with that or i will keep it in until they have to remove the jp drain to make it easier..

so yes, i cant wait!! :) 

sounds like fun stuff uh?? :)

Well i survived the preop testing, after they vandalized my wrist for the blood oxygen test, cold chest xray test, the EKG that the lady almost ripped off my lil mole i have on the side when she took off the sticky!, and the blood lab and pee test..

I was advised to be there at 5:30 in the morning for prep and my surgery should begin at 7:30 am, should last an hour, and then i will be in the recovery room for another hour with no visitors, after that i will be going to my room where i can see my family and my b/f..

I cant wait to take up and know i made it finally to the losers bench!! 
 i was told i will have the cath in until noon the next day after the leak test, and then i will probably go home on the 2nd day after surgery in the evening, but i will go home with the novacan (sp?) pump to numb my abs to reduce the pain, and also "bobby" the  JP Drain that will be following me for 7-10 days.. not too excited about that part, and i differently wasnt excited to hear that i have to remove the two tubes from the pain pump myself.. eeewww!! I will probably have my mom help me with that or i will keep it in until they have to remove the jp drain to make it easier..

so yes, i cant wait!! :) 

sounds like fun stuff uh?? :)