My Surgery Anniversary was yesterday. I feel I have not accomplished what I thought I would, due to myown failures and having a stricture fixed early on.( Start weight of 230, weight today between 158 and 165) The surgery is a wonderful TOOL, but anyone who thinks it is anything but that, is fooling themselves. It is hard work, needs life changes to make it work, and is NOT a miracle in itself - the changes we implement to make it work are truly the miracle. It was NOT easy, and is not fail safe. I feel stupid and naive to have believed it would solve everything, and I would lose more than I actually "worked" for.
I have "met" some wonderful people that have been one of the surprise side gifts of having this surgery. The regular posters here, "egg face" a blogger who is one of the OH staffers here, and many more who are so supportive. They have been so wonderful to/for me.
After my daughters wedding I weighed in at 160!!!! I was soooooooo happy, no budge in the scale forever.
Then today , after swimming ect. weighed in at 162.2
I am beyond discouraged!!!
POOP POOP poop.
Well, today I am up some pounds!! From 159 to 165. This sucks so badly.
I need a kick in the pants, a boot in the ear, AND a major massive change to get me back on track.
YIKES
Hello,
I am really nervous about posting for some reason. I am having this surgery for myself first, because I have 4 children and I want to see them grow up. I have two people in my family that have had this type of surgery - my brother and my brother in law. They look great and are doing fine, so that gives me incentive too.
Secondly, I am so tired of not being able to peel off my cover up at the local pool without feeling every eye is on me (self involved I know, but thats how I feel). I cannot play with my four year old, can't do fun things with my 24 and 26 year old children, and I think my 13 year old is getting a little tired of hearing, "I can't do this with you honey". I want them to have a good role model, and see that Mom can be healthy and happy and finally play!!!
I am so proud of the courage I see posted on this site, and hope I can join the ranks of successful "losers".