This has been a very up and down journery for me, but like I said its worth it and I wouldnt change it for the world. Recently I experienced some real downs (a gain, pain, and had my gallbladder removed). Emotionally I've been thru the ringers to the point that I even decided to seek professional help. Depression is NO JOKE, no matter how minor you think it may be, or if you're afraid of what others may think SCREW EM. Do what you've got to do to keep yourself moving forward. Now to my gain, ugh, yes I gained and not just one pound either. I totally fell off track for a while and was eating all the wrong things and truly pushing myself to my limits. It was Sabotage at its highest. But thankfully, I slapped myself, woke myself back up and found my focus again. I reconnected with my surgeon again after quite some time, thankfully, I let it all out I told him exactly how I was feeling how upset I was and we hashed it out right in the nick of time because a week later I had the WORST gallbladder attack and it had to be removed. But like I tell anyone who follows me and corresponds with me, I'm human, I fall, but I'm getting back up.

 I'm having a moment of true disbelief. This journey has not been an easy one for me but I thank God he made it possible. Even though it's been rough I'd do it all over again. Today my mother and I were out shopping and she bought me the cutest outfit in a size 18/20, mind you I haven't been that size since I was a freshman in high school. And at first I though ok well I'll be able to wear it one day especially since I myself can't see a change in my physical appearance. But to my absolute surprise it fit and I had a little room. I could not believe it it almost brought tears to my eyes. I can't believe that 6 and a half months out I'm 103lbs down and 10 dress sizes down. Omg. Now this is a true whoa moment.