Well, I feel pretty good today, I got a very nice email from my Aunt (the one that I didn't tell until a week ago about the surgery cause she hates fat ppl) well I get and email from her....I swear as I reading I went back to make sure it was from her...it was a very nice email telling me how she is glad I finally told her and that she is so happy for me and that she went online and did some research on the sleeve so she could better understand everything I'm going through and she was acting so worried. Now it felt good it really did...why I feel like I need this women's approval I will NEVER KNOW it must be a thing with the names June both people in my life that have made me feel like an out cast in my family are named June. I'm just waiting for the other show to drop....is that bad?



Then my best friend of 24 years sends me a message telling me that she did a blog on Myspace....so I'm at my aunts house and I begin to read it....it was the most nicest thing that anyone has ever said to me...oh I'm crying again just thinking about it. I cried reading it...its not often that either of us talk about emotions that's just how we are...I guess after being around someone for some many years you don't need to talk about them you can just tell what's going on with them. It just really touched me to know how she really felt. She's my best friend but to me she's more like my sister. 



So I hit a mile stone....ya ready???? I bought....are ya ready for it.....? a men's EXTRA LARGE T-SHIRT from KMART.....and it FIT!!! ME!!! HOLY COW BATMAN!!!! I haven't owned ANYTHING that's an 1x wow I was super excited!!!  I wasn't even gonna try I on yet cause I was like there is NOOOO way that's gonna fit me and it did!

Well since I lost bloged I Had a birthday and now I am 26 years old. Let me tell you I hated that I was turning 26 because now I am no longer in my EARLY twenties I I'm now in my late twenties so I joked that I was gonna turn 21 lol. But in all honestly I have my arms wide open for this birthday and I am so glad that I did turn 26 because this time last year, I knew that I wasn't going to be here to see this 26th birthday because my health was bad I couldn't move or walk for more then 3 or 4 minutes at a time without having to sit down and when I laid down to go to sleep at night I had to have like 6 or 7 pillows so I could breath.  I just knew that if I didn't do something I wouldn't be here to see this birthday.  I was so scared that my mom would celebrate it without me. I am so blessed to have this weight loss surgery and to have this second chance in having a normal and healthy life.  

Well I am now 6 months out as of April 15th wow talk about a crazy and wild ride.... I have loved every minute of it. I am now down 160lbs. I went and seen my doctor for my 6 month check up on April 17th and he is very please where I am at right now. He said we are going to wait a little longer on the skins issues since its causing issues but not enough yet. I go back to see him on July 17th  for my 9 month check up.  

I'm having problems with my skin I swear I think all my fat is shifting in other areas lol. But I have found some really good body shapers for my lower half I use doctor Robert Rey instant body shapers and for my top half I'm using something I found at Kmart and they do work and hide the rolls on my back....now if I could only find something for my arms I would be all set lol. So far I'm not having any skin rashes per say (knock on wood).  

Well I went on vacation for my 26th birthday and I had a blast it was my mom and me and went to my favorite spot in the world. Port Clinton and Marbelhead Ohio, oooh its so pretty there and nice one day I will live there. For the last 10 years we go there and my favorite thing to do was to run around and rock climb, and for the 1st time in like 3 years I was able to do it again and oh man it was so much fun I can even begin to tell you. So while I was there I went and got  anew tattoo and it so rocks!! I will forever remember this trip every time I look at my new tattoo.  

Well, I told my self its been 6 months and I wanna have a drink for my birthday, I was nervous on how it was going to affect me, but I have half a wine cooler....now let me tell you, I was laid out flat on my hotel bed staring at the ceiling and laugh my ass off....for what reason...no one knows lmao I was SOOOO wasted off a half of a wine cooler good lord, I use to go out drink like 10 sex on beach, 3 slow screws, a few shots and a few beers and then I was like HEEEEEY, lol WOW what a difference haha. I don't know if I will be doing that again anytime soon lmao.

Well, I did it! I hit my 6 month mark yesterday  woo hoo. I am now down 150lbs since I started this. I'm down at least 4 shirt sizes (Depends what place I'm at), 6 jeans sizes, 2 1/2 shoe sizes (yes my feet shrunk lol), 5 1/2 ring sizes.  What a ride the last 6 months have been there have been a TON ups and some downs too but with the good sometimes come the bad but let me tell ya....its been worth every minute of it! I would have never thought I would be where I am at today. I still have a long way to go but I know that I will get there! I go in for my 6 month check up tomorrow at my doctors office. Although Dr. S has already seen me and we have talked about how much I have lost since the surgery. I am still a tad bit nervous. I had a certain weight that I wanted to be at by my 6 month and I didn't hit that mark but I'm close enough I'm 7lbs away from that number.    


When I first started this process it was because I was scared to death, that I wouldn't see my 26th birthday...I should say I knew that I wouldn't be here to see my 26th birthday at the rate I was going, I couldn't breath anymore. I just felt like I had to do something or that was gonna be it. Well my 26th birthday is in 4 days (April 20th) and even though I don't wanna turn 26 cause now I will be in my late twenties lol. I welcome it with open arms and then some because for the first time I can see further down the line, I can see that I WILL be around to see my 26, 27, 30, 35 and even 50th birthday. I cannot express to Dr. S how much that mans means to me and what he gave me. My mother gave me life and Dr. S let me keep it.   



I hope that your all doing great. I wish nothing but the best for you all. Thank you for everything. I added some new pictures today.

Wow its been a while since I was last on here, I don't know what is going on with my account, on here I think that I need to get a new one and start all over but then I would have  to re-add everyone and that is gonna take sometime. I am hoping that all the kinks will work themselves out soon.  I hope that everyone is doing grrrreat and kicking butt along the way :)

  Well, where do I start so much has been going on. I added a few new pictures, I am now out a little over 5 and half months since surgery and I'm down a total of 146lbs!! All total WOW I feel great, I still have a long way to go but I'm gonna get there. I also hit another goal I am now in the 200's wooo hooo!!!! I cant even tell you when I remember seeing a 2 as the front number because I dont remember those days its so many years!!! The weather has been so crappy here I have slacked off the last couple of weeks but now that its getting some what better I started back up again with walking a mile. But I need to get my butt in gear and start working out more. I worked out during the weekend and I couldn't move after it...I swear Bob Harper was out to kill me!! Lol but that's ok I still love him haha. 

  I bought my first pair of jeans in a store (target) not made for just large sizes oooh man when I put them on, I cried because I haven't been able to do that since I was 12 or 13 years old and let me tell you it felt so good, I didn't wanna take them off haha. I was like here is the tag just scan that haha. If you would have told me there is where I would be now a year ago I would have just laughed at you and asked you what kinda of drugs you was on! Its so unreal at some points...I mean when I look at myself in the mirror I don't see a change, I still see me well the old me but when I look at my pictures that's when I see that big difference.  I'm sort of a pack rat so I have some really old clothes up stairs and I tired on a jacket that I haven't wore since middle school and I can wear it now but its kinda big lol. That was an awesome feeling!

  Well, as you know I am having some serious skin issues with all the left over skin, so I went and bought one of SPANX that I hear everyone talking about....Well I got it and it wasn't what I thought it was. But I liked it in some ways and other ways I didn't. Well, Amy from my support meeting told me about the Dr. Robert Rey Instant Body Shapers, well I didn't think they would have it my size and come to find out they did and I am in love with them I wear it every day it don't roll at all it gave me a flat tummy and I have NEVER had anything flat haha. I've lost a lot of my butt :( and it makes me look like  I moved out of that town (No-Ass-A-Tall) lmao. I just love them, I suggest that if you try to by them look on ebay 1st I got mine for 15.00 on there and in the stores they run about 40 bucks.

  I get upset at some point in times because I don't feel as though I am losing enough As of March 1 to March 31st I only lost  11 pounds in one month and I know that its great cause I'm still losing weight and I know I'm losing inches and its because I'm not exercising like I was at 1st. I understand that and I'm happy with my 11lbs weight loss its just I wanna wake up one morning and be at my goal cause I'm so excited. But that's when I have that little talk with myself and ask myself when have ever lost 146lbs in like 8 months (some was pre-surgery). Then I feel better. Its something that we have all done at one point in time. 

  I have found myself doing things, that I didn't do before I went to our mall and walked around for a few hours and I haven't been to our mall since I was like 16 because of the looks and stares I would get (granted it was early in the morning....baby steps I'm doing baby steps haha). Also I haven't been out to a restaurant in over 11 years and guess what...I'm going out for my birthday coming up, and I even told a lot of people that way I couldn't chicken out haha. I find myself going up and talking to people I don't know and joking around...now mind you I did that before but I was always scared to death but now I'm not lol.  I have been going to peoples birthday parties and my 1st is no longer how to hide my body when I get there like stand behind something or take the seat in the corner out pictures and now I don't...I feel some what comfortable out in the open where people can see me.

  I finally told my Aunt about the surgery the one that I said I wasn't going to tell...well I did, because I thought ya know what, I don't care what she says, this is one thing she cant Reunion for me! But the shocking thing was.......She was happy about it and happy for me, and was very concerned on how I was doing, was there any medical problems and she was worried about me taking such a big step and how it would effect me. I was shocked, and I don't think she was faking it either, I really do think that she was happy for me.

  I became an Auntie again on March 22nd so that's been great Mom, Dad, Big Sissy and Baby are doing fine she is so cute!! I have started making my scrap book for my weight loss but I haven't got very far cause once I sit down to do it I see how much I need to do and I change my mine to do something else lmao.

  Ahhh I have been on sugar kick the last week, I have been getting into choc candy and I took four bites of cake and I don't even like cake so I need to stop that NOW and get my butt back up on that wagon so yell at me if you want it will help me lol. Someone told me it sounds like I am lacking a vitamin and that's why I am craving sugar none stop. I finally found a vitamin that agrees with me and taste REALLY good its like a treat haha. Thanks to my wonderful friend Linda :) They are the Gummy Bear Vitamins.

  I got back for my 6 month check up in April I am excited to go there. My Doctor's office has started up another support group and its been awesome we have only had one meeting so far but we have two in April I am looking forward to. I have done the web site and forums for the support group so I am looking forward to seeing what they all think about it.

  WOW that's a long blog sorry haha its been over a month almost two so now you are up to date on everything. I hope all is well with you all (((Hugs))) Love you all and I wish nothing but the best of luck for you all and Thank you so much for all your friendships and the love and kind words you all are the best group of people anyone could ask for.

Hey Everyone, well I know that my last blog wasn't so happy go lucky like it normally is . I wanna say THANK YOU to everyone that has sent me emails, cards, letters,  IM's and PM's and called me you have no idea what that meant to me, I have met some of the most nicest people on here and you all mean so much to me.



After I wrote that blog I felt a lot better, I guess I shouldn't bottle up things to the point I get to feeling that bad. I am getting along with my lexapro just fine.  I haven been feeling a lot better since the other day. A lot of things have changed.. Me and my boyfriend broke up but I'm ok....I'm surprised that I am ok. We  kepted having little tiff's over the weight loss surgery and how I have changed....Yeah I wanna do things now that I'm able to! So as of right now I am only worrying about me and I'm going to put me first for once.



Now that I got that little melt down out of the way its time for me to get back on track and that is what I have been doing. I am making myself get out of the house and go do things. I have went back to working out and boxing. I am no longer feeling hungry all the time anymore because I changed what I am eating! I was told to drop the rice cakes and I did and wow what a difference I am no longer hungry non stop. So thank you to everyone that stated they was a no no, no mater what my NUT said.


I have lost the 6lbs that I gained and a few more pounds so now I am down 122lbs (36 pre-op and 86 post-op) :)



I went to see my cardo doctor yesterday and he was very pleased in how I look and feel. I got to laughing at the nurse and both of my doctors because they couldn't figure out how to take out my information that I'm a diabetic and had HBP. Since I am no longer a diabetic or have high blood pressure. Everything there is nothing but computerized. They said they have never had to removed that kind of info from the files. 



But...the best part was when they called me back, normally when I would hear my name being called... I would sigh and think "Well, here go with them embarrassment when I tell them sorry you cant weigh me on your scale cause its not big enough"  Ohh how I would hate that feeling! I don't know why most doctor office still have scales that only go to 250lbs now days with obesity being so high. Any ways she called me back and I saw that it was a "newer" scale and I thought well I'm going to go ahead and try it and just see...well... I was finally weighed on a normal scale not a bariatric's for the 1st time in like 9 years. I was so happy!!