I had a wonderful walk this morning. I started around 450am and got home about 605am so I got to
really clear my mind. Yesterday when I blog a lady asked me did the numbers really matter. I could say
no then I would be clear and off the hook and I wouldn't have to reach the finish line because I would
have already been there BUT I have never finished anything I started when it comes to weight loss so
this is important that I get to the NUMBER if I get there and I don't like it I can do something about it
but I have to finish what I started.

See the way I look at this is someone BELIEVED enough in my to invest. I had no way to pay for this surgery.
TRICARE paid all but $25.00 and the office fee of $500.00 so I am truly BLESSED.

Yes I am better than I have been in almost 17 years I am finally Living in my space. Not the shadow of anyone.
I can stand in the front I dont have to kneel down or stand sideways I am living my best life thanks to my
Band I have no regrets but is it a daily struggle yes!!!!!!  It is my plan not to diet to see what works for me
and do it... if I fall get up and try it again but the Best thing that has work for me is weighing every day
because the minute I stopped I notice a 5 pound gain if I weigh each morning I am saying ok what are
you really going to do today Tara lets get to moving and I do.

Don't let anyone tell you what you should be doing or not doing do what works for you. You are in
control of you not them.

Today I will do my best to Drink Water. I will work out. I will not only be sad when I fall down
but I will be glad witth each step I make. I have to learn how to embrace the change and
accept the fact that during this journey I have to live. I am not on a diet but a life style
change. I try to not limit myself to certain food groups but to downsize my food portions.
This journey is rough but I am willing and able.

I have been fighting this weight thing for so long and at times it;s like I take one step forward and three to five
steps back. It drives me crazy that as far as i have come I am still not there, I want to finally complete this thing
for once. I want to get to my first goal and then see where it leads me. I am working out as much as I did
before but I need to up it so I have decided that as of monday I will do everything in my power to be on my
own time and stop making excuses so i am going to try my best.