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Soooooooooo....

I'm down 116 as of yesterday. 7 Months out...

I went shopping to Celebrate...bought me a size 18 dress that looks good... woohoo...and a little sweater thingy to go over it cuz of my "wingy" arms. I bought a pair of size 20 jeans too but just a bit tight (stupid tummy is in the way) but they are good incentive to forge ahead. I will take a pic tomorrow of me in my new dress and post it when I get it scanned in :)

Start weight - 349 Current weight - 233
Start Size 34 or 5x
Current Size 18/20 or 1X/XL


I'm feeling good. I can't say how many times I would have quit and gotten frustrated without having had the surgery. How many I'll start again tomorrows I would have had...but I know I wouldn't be here where I am now...health wise for sure..
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Bennies....

Blood Sugar - in control with no meds from A1c 13 to a 6.5
Incontinence - Gone
High Blood Pressure - off of meds
Cholesterol - in the "good" zone but working on my HDL
Arthritis in knee - no more pain.
Sleep Apnea - GONE

Confidence level a 10
Healthy eating 8 - I still make a few bad choices but over all I feel I have really developed good habits and skill sets.
People treat me different...it's way way noticeable.
I'm more active, and can exercise with out pain - it does get easier.
My emotional health is up and down but I am a work in progress...I do notice alot more old issues come up with my new "look", but I'm learning over deal with things without turning to food. I believe for me this will be a life challenge.
I crochet more LOL...its lower calorie
People ask me for eating and health advice more.
OH I put a down payment on a Caribbean cruise in Dec. 09 (wow)

Negative... droopy skin but not surprise there. Otherwise, nothing...I still eat most things I like or have found a substitute that I like more. So now I'm saving for Plastics, it's kinda fun to plan.

I'm terrified...I'll fail I'll regain the "other shoe will drop...because as much as it is hard work...it feels so good, I fear losing it... as I said a work in progess.

I love life and am excited for the future now because I believe it can happen and dreams can come true.

So...here I am...here we are...my daughter gave me a saying...it says
"The journey is the reward." Thank you all for being on the journey with me.

I just needed to share.

Twyla

I've been thinking about where I am in my weight loss. I am 9 weeks out and haven't lost in a little over two weeks. I couldn't help but stop and think that if I were doing this without the surgery I would have given up a long time ago. I would have "started" again tomorrow and probably failed tomorrow only to try again on "monday". There was always the next day. I'm a little discouraged but I know that I have no choice be to hang in and just do all the right things and my body will finally get the idea that I don't want the fat anymore. It makes me a bit crazy but I'm so grateful right now that I don't have the chance to "give up". Just a thought.

I feel rather profound today and so when a support group member asked for advice pre-surgery, especially when you worry about your decisions and putting your life on the line with surgery I replied...here is what I said :)

I always tell my kids to fast forward when they make a decision. How will this impact me in the future (like getting a tatoo for instance). Will I still want this in 3 mos, 1 year, 5 yrs etc. But, I knew that death with surgery was actually a lower risk to me than what it would be in say 5 years...My father died at age 57 (I'm 47), from diabetes. I wasn't even sure I could make it that far. I knew if I did I would be in such bad shape I wouldn't really be living life after. Now...8 weeks out...I feel so much better about my future and actually plan on having a great one.

My advice - fast forward :) remember when those niggling thoughts haunt you what your life will be like in the bright new future you are building for yourself. This will help you stay focused, even when it gets tough.

I've got the blues pretty bad. Every thing seems to have stalled out. I've done alot of research on Hibernation Syndome. I honestly feel this is where mose diets fail...you get to this part and give up. Well I don't have that choice anymore. So I'm just hanging in there. I upped my protein and am hoping that helps. I go into the docs at the end of the month so I am not going to weigh myself until I go to the nutritionist.

I'm down 50 Pounds and feeling good. Nothing major going on. I feel like I'm getting my energy back. I went swimming 2x over the weekend. Summer sure is slipping by quickly...sigh.

My BMI is now 47 so that is a good accomplishment also. I have people commenting on how they can tell I've lost weight. I need a new bra and undies :) I can live with my baggie clothes for a while longer everything is stretchy anyway.

Tomorrow is Monday...work....can't sleep.

More to come...or less to come LOL....