Ha, I just looked at my last post and I was complaining about the heat.  Today it was below zero when we got up!  Are we really ever satisfied??  I guess it is the same with our bodies?  I feel great about how I have done, but find myself looking in the mirror and once again thinking I am fat!  I am still over weight, but not fat!  Its that belly pudge that bothers me.  I need to get off my "no longer fat" ass and exercise and I know it.  So I need to decide am I going to live with some belly flab or make a decision to actually do something about it?  I am the forever procrastinator.  Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya...you know the song.  So when will tomorrow ever come for me?  My big thing is when things get back to NORMAL.   What is NORMAL??  When it is warmer/colder/sunnier/less windy/??  How about when school is out/when it starts?  Normal is to be abnormal, and if I decide I am not going to make the effort to exercise regularly then I need to live with the bell flab.  I do exercise, but not like I would like to.  I have a sister that really gets off on exercise.  YUCK..I dread it..and no good reason why.  Ah well, I am so much happier with my life and myself today.  I wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a wonderful New Year.  Blessings to all.

I am feeling so much better!  Why didn't I look into this years ago!  Guess it just had to get to the point where I realized if I did nothing I would die early.  I want to live to see my Grand kids as adults and maybe be a great grandma.  I still struggle with the food issues and may always have the problems I have.  I use food for so much more than nutrition.  It is my comfort, my stress reducer (not really-but try to use it that way I know), my friend.  If I am sad I wanna eat, if I am reading and relaxed I wanna eat, if I watch TV I wanna eat....the times I do best are the times I am physically active, and I am working on that.  I am basically a very lazy person and hated to exercise, but since my RNY I like to walk.   Just hope the weather gives us a break soon, the heat is terrible.  I am not losing anymore, been in a stall for over a month, but I feel like I am right in line for weight loss and expect to drop more when my body is ready to give it up.  I would love to be looking into PS, hate my panni and the ruffled fat.  Maybe next year I can consider it. 

I am getting my gall bladder out next Tues 05/04/2010.  I am so glad!  I hurt almost everytime I eat or drink!  Sure hope the stomach and back pain are gone after the gall bladder is gone too!   My friend Cindy has walked me me a few times and I have started walking with my co worker Lena once a week. She has been taking off weight like crazy and looks fantastic. I get most of her hand me downs, so I really encourage her to lose.   I love walking now!  Go figure!  No pain in my feet and it makes my back hurt much less when I am walking!  I wear a pedometer every day now and am hoping to get up to at least 8000 steps a day, 10000 is my goal.   This new life is wonderful, no regrets.  The floppy arms and loose skin are not thrilling, but so much better than the rolls and not being able to bend over to tie my shoes.  I even got a little cute pair of highheeled sandals.  I have not worn them yet, but I got them!  Clothes shopping is so much fun now, I used to hate it.  

Thank you God for the wonders you show me every day. Bluebirds and trees, snow, rain and green grass, my children and grandchildren...   All glory, honor and credit to You for allowing me to live long enough to take advantage of this tool.  Thank You for leading me to St Vincents and Dr Inman, she is a wonder.  I marvel at how you love me, I am not worthy of this great love.  I already abused the body You gave me once, please continue to guide me to take care of myself now and never fall back into bad habits. 

Things are Great.  I walk daily, either outside or on the treadmill.  I no longer take diabeties medication!  All the folks on this website keep me going.  Too often I find I want to put soemthing in my face, so I try to make it a good snack.  I am still losing so must be doing OK.  I love this new life, and Spring coming doesn't hurt anything!  I intend to get some use out of the pool this year, not just the grandkids in it.  We got a trampoline and I can get out and do some jumping for exercise too, and I am ready to ride .  My oldest daughter, the vet tech and horse owner, tells me I have to wait until the ground is drier and she has checked for new holes over the winter.  Sometimes they watch me too well.  Oh well, all done for love.

I am doing very well, but having a hard time getting in my Protein and  my walking.   I have lost about 30 lbs since surgery, and about 45 over all.  I feel so much better and as of last night I can sleep on my stomach again!  Still taking the 1/2 dosage of Diabetic Meds.  Blood Sugars have been in good range.  between 100-120 now.  Big change for the 300-400's!  I still have not gone to buy new clothes, wearing hand me downs from family and friends.  I loved clearing out my closet last week.