I think it's been a while since I threw a real post here.

As of today I hover somewhere around 208. With quitting my job in April, and moving from Metro Detroit to Jeff City, there was 2.5 months where I really just sat around the house. I wasn't doing massage (as I'm not licensed in Missouri) and was unemployed. Admittedly I was very homesick. But who wouldn't miss ICHQ all all the wonderful people there?? I watched my weight go up and down with my lack of activity, and sudden spurts of "OMG I HAVE TO DO SOMETTTHHHIIIING"

Job hunting was depressing, and I found myself going back to food for comfort. Ice cream and chocolate, have always been my downfall. They continue to be.

So, since my 101 pound mark, at 10.5 months, I've only lost 2 additional pounds. I passed my one year mark on 7/20/10. 103 pound loss total, at one year. It's amazing what a year can do, and I'm proud of that accomplishment. I'm finding that my size 14 jeans are getting loose now, and I cannot wear any pants without a belt. I'm giving more and more clothes away.

However, I still have 38 pounds to loose, to be at my goal. I'm going to really start watching what I'm eating again... less carbs, more protein. I still can't stomach protein shakes though. Between the taste and the sweet, It makes me want to be sick.

I also plan to start walking after work. Even if it's only a few blocks, it needs to be done. I'm anxious to get my license for massage in Missouri, so I can start that type of work again. I lost so much weight when I was working as a therapist. When I was actively using my body everyday, and no longer behind the desk.

I'm putting my goal at 6 months to loose the 38 pounds. Putting it out there for everyone to see. And putting it out there to hold myself accountable for that goal.

Dear January 2011, you will see me at a slim 170 pounds.

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So today was my date with the scale. To my surprise It stopped at 210 pounds. Which is 101 pounds down from my 311 pound heft about a year ago. A majority of that (87 pounds) has been lost in the last 10 months.

I'm glad to walk around a happier and healthier me.


On a side note, I've moved from Detroit, MI to Jefferson City, MO. So, I've got a new town, and a new life... I'm ready to dive in <3


XOXO
A

Several years ago I made a New Years Resolution. My resolution was to be a size 16 by the end of the year. The end of the year came and I was still not in that size 16. I was crestfallen, but life went on. When I began this journey I was in a size 24 pants. 24 pushing 26 to be honest.

Today I went to ICHQ. I went there wearing a pair of low rise size 16 jeans. It's my first weight related accomplishment in 2010. It may be 3 years to late, but I've finally achieved that goal.

Humility aside, I'm proud of myself.

So, today I realized I'm only 70# away from goal... In the new year I'm going to kick ass!! I'm giving my self to my 1 year mark to loose that 70#. So... 7 months, 70#... loose 10# a month... I think that's reasonable.

I cannot wait for this damned holiday season to be over! So much focus is put on food and eating durring this season. If I see another cookie or pie I may just have to be sick!

Now, prior to surgery, my downfall was sweets. Cookies, cakes, chocolate, ice cream. They all had my number, and I loved each one fully, and without prejudice. They were my comfort in times of stress or sadness. They were my friend, and always there.


No matter what they tell you about not being able to tolerate sugar, (especially with the RNY bypass) everyone is different. Each body reacts differently to sugar, and as your healing progresses and you are further into your recovery, the more your body will tolerate. Sugar included.


For my first bout with sugar was with a protein cereal about 10 weeks or so after surgery. It ended poorly, and I was in excruciating pain for hours. 1/2c of this cereal... I think it was 9g or 11g of sugar per serving. Coupled with the sugar from my Silk (as I found I wasn't as dairy tolerant as I thought I was). It was a disaster.


Further on it got easier. I was able to tolerate the natural sugars, honey... fruit sugars, and eventually refined sugar. Cookies, pies, chocolate and ice cream... my friends were finally back in town.


I found that the stress or sadness I experienced had never left, and that I was able to tolerate my comforters again. I found that it was easy to derail yourself... one cookie at a time. Not to mention I looove to bake, and that my mum's business is "Angie's Sweet Treats". Not that it's an excuse, but it is defiantly a contributor.

So for the summary to all of this nonsense, I have a resolution for the new year. To get my dumb ass back on track and stop lollygagging about, and screwing up my goals. Refined sugar, to hell with you. New gym, at least twice a week (now that I have school in the evenings again).


I'm 5 months post op and have only lost 70 pounds. I'm proud of where I am, but I know I can do better. And my streamlining my nutritional intake (again) I hope to regain a loss of 10-15 pounds a month for the next 6 or 7 months.


So here's to the chicken fatoosh salad, and unsweetened ice tea I'm having for lunch.


Time to get myself in gear.

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