It’s been about 12 days since surgery.  I'm feeling o.k. but I don’t have any energy.  I’m not eating as much as I am supposed to. I get so bored with food now, that’s probably why I don’t have energy. 

Pain levels are way down and the pain I experience after swallowing is not so intense but I still have it.  I seem to get a little better each day.  Now if I can just find some energy!

We got home yesterday, the 90 mile trip was not so bad.  After 10 days away it is good to be home.

I’ve been re-reading the folder I got on post-op eating and I’ve been misinterpreting the amount of food I’m supposed to eat.  I find it hard to eat what I thought was the right amount but, it turns out, I should be eating about 20% more.  That may be hard to do just yet.

I went back to work today for a few hours and was complemented twice on my weight loss.  It was really shocking both times.  Since July I’ve lost 35 lbs. but I didn’t think anybody would notice yet so it threw me.

Over all I think I’m feeling pretty good.

I’m sure that my feelings will change in time but right now I am really second guessing my decision to have WLS.  I can only eat about 20% of what I’m supposed to, I have no energy and a tremendous amount of pain.  I have been walking a little, but not as much as prescribed, I just don’t have the energy.  It has to get better soon…right? 

I spoke with Dr. Aldridge yesterday about the pain after swallowing, he felt that it was normal. We also talked about overeating but I definately don't have that problem. 

Since yesterday this has been my hardest time so far.  I have a tremendous amount of stomach pain after swallowing which I will talk to Dr. Aldridge about today.  I hope I don’t have a stricture.

Yesterday, after leaving Dr. Langsdorf’s office I got sick in the truck on the way back to the hotel.  I have had some nausea but that’s the first time I actually got sick…and I think I made up for the times that I didn’t get sick after feeling nauseous. 

I'm glad that I am continuing counseling with Dr. Langsdorf.  I really feel that I need it, and so does he.  I want to be successful but I know I can’t do it on my own.  If I could have I would have.  This is the right time, the right place, the right doctor and the right way to go about it.  I am confident!