Why hellllooo there!! its been such a long time since i've posted. things are going really well here. I'm alittle over seven months out and if the scale was not lying to me today....i am exactly 100lbs down from my highest weight. holy shittttt!!! im so happy haha. i'm fitting into some mediums, mostly large and xls (xls if its juniors) and size 12/14 pants. i started wearing tight 20's 22's.... its nuts to think im like half my size.  i really do like the way i look sometimes.... sometimes though it s a struggle and i still see the same chunky girl in the mirror.  i still see the double chin and the tummy.... i dont know...i am in love with my legs though haha. they look muscular and starting to get toned and defined... same with the arms, sometimes though i think they loooooook sooooooo bigggggg. also sometimes i think i look completely different, something i think i look exactly the same and as much as it excites me to have people tell me how great im looking, its so awkward. i never know what to do or say except thank you haha. besides looks tho....i FEEL AWESOME! i feel like nothing is stopping me. i feel healthy and like im getting into shape. i enjoy the gym. WHAT?!?!? i never enjoyed the gym. it makes me feel good and i like that burn i get after it.  im gonna miss my leisurely gym days when school starts back up. the one thing that i'm going to be happy about when school starts again is the end of my bordom eating!!!! jjjeeeeeze. that is one habit that is so hard to break. even thogh i turn to much healthier options, boredom eating is still so bad. this summer i def. found out what it meant to GRAZE and i def surprised myself withhow much i can still consume while grazing haha. sooooooooo bad. I also became way strict again with counting calories and trying to get to 1200 a day and not going over! I needed to up my food intake bc for a month or so, i did not lose a single lb. turns out i was not eating enough. so i upped it and i strictly watched everything i put in my mouth during the week and let myself relax on the weekends and wow... the lbs came off.... i'm bac k in happy land land again and things are just going so well... as far as my health is concerned haha. boys and relationships are a completely different story. sorry if this is all rambly, i'm rocking out to my jobros cd and i'm not really concentrating on what i'm typing haha... yea so what that i'm almost 23, the jobros rock hahahaha....

hope everyone is doing wonderfully out thereeeee
xoxox
laur

Hi there! So it's been quite a while since i've last posted, but im 4 and 1/2 months out from surgery, down a whopping total of 86 pounds! i weigh 204. holy shit. 5lbs away from ONEDERLAND! i will scream when i jump on the scale and its under 200lbs.  hopefully by my 5 month mark, june 8th... i'll be down to 199... i only have 14 more pounds to lose until i lose 100lbs total.... 12 days... it probably wont happen, but definately i better lose those 4lbs...  anyways, what else is going on with me? I am definately gaining muscle, im so proud of my arms. i love them haha. i dont know, i just feel really great. with the exception that i am craving sweets like no other. i'm blaming my period for this. hopefully when its over i wont want it anymore.

anyways, i've been working 9-5 everyday and the weather has been so beautiful out and i;m stuck in doors.  i wish i could go outside and tan!! i'm so pale! i wanna play outside instead of working haha
i'm gonna go watch some tv, email my soldier, and probably go to bed.
love ya'll

NOT haha happy april fools day. well im not near goal, but i'm 73lbs away hahah. and ill only be 3 months out next tuesday!! So as you can see everything is going quite well here. School is just kicking my ass. I cannot wait til may 16th so i can GRADUATE! thank god. as far as food goes, not gonna lie, i have been doing horrible with my protein. im gonna start using some powder again in my food bc i cant get it all in. I'm in that phases now where i rather not eat anything. I'm still taking my vitamins, however last week i definately missed some. i gotta get back on the ball here. doing well with liquids as usual. Got my butt into a size 16!!! wahooo havent seen that since my junior year of hs. no lie!! i would enjoy some boob shrinkage here, but that doesnt seem to be happening, its ok though. another thing i gotta do is go back to the gym. i have just been so busy. i know i know this are crappy excuses but i want to join the new excerthon. my totals are gonna be so sad looking bc i can't get to the gym until saturday morning. pathetic right? haha well im going back to do my stupid homework xoxo lauren ooo ps let me know what ya think of my new pics!!

I am officially down 50lbs! how exciting. im doing so great with protein and i am back at the gym and i can not wait to go today!! today, not doing too hot with eating, but ill try to eat some more later. at the gym yesterday i did 30min cardio 30- leg curls 30- leg extensions 40- leg push back thingers 30-calf extensions and some more stuff that i just dont remember. i cant wait til i lose more!!!

officially one month out as of friday the 8th. 
42lbs lost.
25% of my excess body weight is gone.
i am fitting comfortably into size 18 when i was wearing 22.
my xl shirts are hanging. 
i fit back into my sorority jacket that i havent worn since i got in.
and the best thing. 
my labs came back and for the first time in a while, my blood pressure was normal without my meds, my blood sugar was normal, my tryglicerides (sp) were normal, my cholesterol was normal, i was NORMAL. im still obese, but its going to change. like favored said in a comment, when have i seen these results before? when have i been so happy. people tell me im glowing. i still hardly tell a difference, i know its changing but i see me everyday. i saw the nut and she said im eating just fiiine. which made me happy i just really need to boost up that protein bc im only getting on avg 30g a day when i should be a 60. gonna work for that. plus im allowed protein bars starting next friday anddd she gave me a recipe for turkey meatloaf that im dying to try, bc well, it will remind me of a decent dinner not just cheese haha. i am still hardcore craving veggies. like you wouldnt believe. uh my dad makes this BANGIN zucchini and tomato thing i  guess its like a ratitouille (or however you spell it) and its so good for you, ive been craving it for i would say a week now. and tonight was my sororities bid night. we gave out 11bids and all accepted and we went to the house for a lil party and there was shoprites chocolate chip cake. my all time fave. i told my roomie to order it and she did and you know what i watched everyone eat it and i was not jealous at all. i think it was the fact that i was wearing my sexy new jeans that were actually fitting and flattering instead of baggy and hanging off. man this weekend was unreal. im just so happy. time for bed. niiight