well, I went to my 1 year check up finally with Dr Brown. All vitamin levels are normal except B1 is very high. ? I got a referral to a plastic surgeon for a tummy tuck. I'm thinking next fall. I'm still considered "obese" my BMI is 33. I weigh 166. If I can get to 155 then I will just be "over weight" and then tummy tuck with take 10 lbs off so then I will be 145. My "ideal" weight for being 5 feet tall is 115 lbs which will NEVER happen and I'm ok with that. I've been walking again but now I can go alot further. He gave me a pill to coat my stomach and it prevents ulcers. I'm to take it 1/2 hour before meals. He gave it to me so that I can take something during my periods for the headaches so that I can take excedrin/midol/pamprin because the neurologist couldn't fix the headaches and i went soooo many times.

I am between a size 14 & 16 in pants/shorts. and I wear an XL in shirts. I have hit the goodwill several times. take things in and come home with new! I am discouraged because I've only lost 88 lbs. In 2 weeks will be my one year date. :( I thought I would be at 100 lbs lost by then and it makes me soooo sad. I just travel soooo much and its difficult for me to get to excersize. I have been put on anti-depressants since I lost my job last month and I go to see a counselor along with my family for court stuff that is going on too. My hair has quit falling out excessively which is good and I don't feel so self conscious going out in public. I wonder what my blood work will say when I go for my appt next month to the surgeon.?

so what is up with the spanx? are u supposed to wear underwear or not? why is there a slit in the crotch? i bought some that go up to under my boobs and it just rolls down like all the other girdles I've tried.

finally got a new computer! havent been on in quite a long time. How is everyone?

Well, I'm vit D3 deficient and B12 is borderline deficient. now I'm taking drops of D3 and a sublingual B12 in addition to the normal other vitamins. I've lost 68 lbs. I'm down 12 BMI. The dr said I should be about 10 lbs further along and 2 more BMI to be considered "average". It's so frustrating. I know I should be excersizing more and sometimes make better food choices but come on........In the last month I've lost 3 lbs  I do make sacrafices. I knowingly choose things I can tolerate eating over things I would really like to eat. I'm wondering if I could handle an appetite supressant? I guess I need to quit the Starbucks once a week. I am so sick of the snow and it taking me an hour to get home. I am trying to be thankful that I even have a job but I am so worn out and don't want to do any type of excersize when I get home. I guess that is the only thing left that I have to do to loose weight again is excersize. Why me? Why do I have to be the one to be the slow looser?