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on September 20, 2008 12:22 pm
Summer is almost over and I can actually say I MADE IT !!! This is one summer that I dont regret!!! Every fall, I used to look back and say "Next year I'm gonna lose the weight and enjoy my life fat free." Well people, THIS YEAR HAS BECOME THAT YEAR... I haven't reached my goal yet nor have I lost the typical 100 lbs but I FEEL GREAT!!! And really, isnt that all we really hope for? I am diabetes free, (knock on wood) my cholesterol is way below 200 (which is where it should be) I have more size 12 clothes than 14's and I am beginning to accept myself in the mirror without any clothes!!! 
The only thing I can find to complain about is my lack of willpower to get the rest of the weight off... I read the profiles of others and see their determination and loyalty to the gym and I am jealous... I have the time yes I do- to hit the gym EVERY DAYUM DAY but I just dont have the willpower! I think what I am going to do is paste a pic of myself pre WLS in various places in my house to encourage excercise. That is a place where I DO NOT want visit again...Now dont get me wrong, I DO hit the treadmill at least 2X a week and I do walk in the park at least 3X a week and I do my hip hop abs in between but I really think I all I am doing is just enough not to gain... HMPH... I WANT TO LOSE!!! I WANT TO LOSE!!! I think I want to lose? NOTE TO SELF: Get your fat a- s- s up and MOVE IT!!! Stay healthy and blessed people!!!
1 comment | Click here to leave a comment. The only thing I can find to complain about is my lack of willpower to get the rest of the weight off... I read the profiles of others and see their determination and loyalty to the gym and I am jealous... I have the time yes I do- to hit the gym EVERY DAYUM DAY but I just dont have the willpower! I think what I am going to do is paste a pic of myself pre WLS in various places in my house to encourage excercise. That is a place where I DO NOT want visit again...Now dont get me wrong, I DO hit the treadmill at least 2X a week and I do walk in the park at least 3X a week and I do my hip hop abs in between but I really think I all I am doing is just enough not to gain... HMPH... I WANT TO LOSE!!! I WANT TO LOSE!!! I think I want to lose? NOTE TO SELF: Get your fat a- s- s up and MOVE IT!!! Stay healthy and blessed people!!!
I am extremely pleased with my progress but sometimes I just cant help but want more... I mean I have lost 85lbs in a year, stopped taking my asthma and cholesterol meds and all is good... But still I want more... I look at other profiles and see pics of people who look as if they were never ever overweight and I sigh... WE ARENT SUPPOSED TO COMPARE OURSELVES TO OTHER PEOPLE!!! SIGH...I mean I look good, Im in a size 12-14 and I can walk MILES without being tired. BUT I WANT MORE!!!! I am making a vow to myself: I will excercise every day, and change my eating habits to reflect an intelligent and healthy lifestyle. I have just come back from The Dominican Republic... I only went for a weekend but I had a very good time! The young man I met there in April paid for me to come down for a few days. I REALLY had a good time. I dont know if it is the WLS or what but this year, I have met some really nice guys... It has made me reevaluate my past relationships and say goodbye to the people who really didnt have my best interests at heart. I mean, who's to say that these new people dont have the best in store for me but as they wine and dine me , take me places, show me good times WITHOUT the pressure of sleeping with them, I find that I truly am enjoying myself... I can also now say that I DESERVE THIS TREATMENT. I AM WORTHY OF BEING TREATED LIKE A QUEEN AND SO MUCH MORE!!! It is very fun just dating and getting to know myself... I will never ever again settle for less than this... Life is just that good.......
So far I am enjoying the 4th decade of my life... I am 85lbs lighter than I was this time last year, I met a few wonderful people, visited some pretty interesting places, done some pretty interesting things, DID I SAY I AM 85LBS LIGHTER ??? Life is sweet !!! Its wonderful to be me at this time!!! So what I'm broke and about 4 paychecks from being homeless but hey--- I look good, Im healthy, and I have a feeling It will only get better!!! 
