Gonna Be Better!

Nov 19, 2009

Well, May 23rd was my last post following IM Florida 70.3 and I have committed to use OH more. So here goes.

This past 6 months have been probably the most difficult I have ever had. Following Florida IM 70.3, I took a wrist injury that led to surgery and 5 months of being brace and casted up. I'm not out of the woods yet but the future is looking far better than it did a month ago. As a result, I went from being a 255lb dude that was on his way down to a skyrocketing 294lb dude doing nothing but moping around.

My brother Dan has been a great inspiration throughout his weight loss and fitness journey and one day we had a heart to heart like we have had many times. I realized that we have had that talk like 10 times. I heard the frustration in his voice and for the first time I felt like I was letting him down or that he was disappointed and frustrated with me. It was my first run-in with accountability I had had in 5 months. I realized that there was a problem that I was avoiding, similar to those that I shelfed when I toppled 430lbs.

I decided it was time to once again as I did in July of 2007 to make a life change. I decided that I would no longer be the fat dude finishing triathlons better than 1/3 of the field. I would no longer be the fat dude on a great tri bike, riding at 22mph for miles and miles. I would no longer be the fat dude that pulled a century on over 5,000 of elevation. I would no longer be the dude standing on the beach in Florida hearing people whisper "is that dude actually going to try this race?" I'm done with it.

It is so easy to get off course and for someone that went through WLS but never really made the mental changes that need to take place, I am now fighting a battle without that fast-track that WLS provides. It is only a tool and definately not the answer.

So today I am 283 and have so much hope but a large hill to climb. Did a body scan and for my bone mass / density I have a frame that would support 170-180, so that is my goal. I am racing Louisville IM this year (the race I had to postpone due to my wrist) and will not be the fattest guy on the field. I will race at my goal weight. I have 9 1/2 months to lose once again 110 lbs.

In August, I will be the dude flying up the hills and swimming with the pack and running with the pack. If I can do these races with a 100lb backpack on, I can surely do them significantly faster without it. Here's to a fantastic 9 month journey of pain, hurt, happiness, health and a sweet victory at the finishline; hopefully the finish that I dreamed of doing with my brother. My goal is to keep up with him and race side by side and finish that race together without me slowing him down but him keeping up with me! I used to run like the wind way and forever way back when. I cannot wait to find that guy again, I know he's within reach!

Jeff
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