ObesityHelp

Well i see that I haven't been on this site for quite a while.  I got to the point of being super depressed with seeing everyone's posts and their success stories, yet here I am.. I believe my weight has gone up a few pounds. I haven't been to see my Dr lately as I don't feel like being told my weight is up and i have to do something about it. I know I do.. but my problem lately is i don't feel like cooking or eating. so when i do get hungry i have toast and peanut butter and honey, or a banana, a couple of granola bars, or grilled cheese sandwiches or popcorn. that has been my diet lately.. easy.. not healthy but i don't have a craving for anything else . and all i want to do it sleep.. I work 9 shifts every 2 weeks, and i sleep 7+ hours a night, but it doesn't seem to be enough.  :(

I still have not heard back from either wpg or Regina, so i am to the point that I now give up. it is what it is.

 

Well, I had my yearly medical with my GP on Monday. My Blood pressure was down, it was something like 128/85 when i am usually 134 or 136..  I have dropped a whole 2 lbs.. my blood work came back looking okay, he didnt change my meds at all, so am still on antidepressant x2, mood stabilzer x1, thyroid med, blood pressure pill, anxiety med, and now pain meds for my knees, at least it seems to help keep the inflamation down which is what I need.
He also told me that he wrote me a letter of referal to the program in Regina.  Has anyone else been through the program @ Regina? can you tell me anything about it? how many times do you have to go back and forth to Regina? and how long was tha wait?

any info that you cna pass along to me, i would really appreciate it very much.
Thank you
xo
Trish

Well, here I am sitting here reading everyone's success stories and getting really upset that I have been turned down, and my Dr didnt know what else to do for me. I see him on May 15th and I am hoping to have gathered enough info and contact info to give him for other places that he could refer me to.

I wish that we had the money that I could go this alone, but we dont.  With Reading everyone's success stories or those of you who are waiting for your surgery date, I am envious and it makes me more depressed about the whole situation.  I dont even eat a whole lot of food in a day.

I had 2 blue berry muffins and a glass of 1% chocolate milk then for supper I had a 2 pieces of meat loaf and 4 little potatoes with some sour cream and spices on it.. oh, i had ketchup on my meat load and a big mug of water.. my Mug i think is like 16 oz if not more. I fill it and drink it a couple of times a day.

I'm not very mobile due to my knee and back, but i have puttered around here today, in and out the door a few times with the dogs. Now i will be taking out the garbage as tomorrow is my garbage day.  I spent 5 hours @ st B the other night due to my leg and the pain i was having. They just examined my leg and basically told me it is the arthritus and my weight.. but they did set me up for a ultrasound on wednesday. Not looking forward to going for that, as I will have a long walk from the parking lot to the ultrasound dept. needless to say that pain will be even worse and with it being my left knee, i am messing up my right hip, which causes more pain.  Can anyone else out there relate to what I am going threw? 
Now when I am out and about I look at people and wonder if they were like me at one time, and were lucky enough to have surgery and are now healthier and happier!?

a few things worry me about weight loss.. My mom always said i would be prettier if i lost the weight, i would be able to get a boyfriend if i had lost the weight.
so i havent been comfortable in my own body for a long time.. what happens when one loses all this weight and people start to show interest in them, both men and women

so, my blog isnt positive in the least. I just had to get this off my chest. I'm having a really rough day today, and I go for my yearly mri scan for my brain.  i just had to vent. my apologies.

I'm here as I am interested in weight loss surgery. I was refered to the dept @ St B in Wpg. but I was turned down as my BMI was too high. But they said i would be put onto the waiting list.
I have battled weight all my life, but I am now at my worst..  I'm here to read other peoples stories and maybe meet a friend or two and hopefully pick up some good ideas and tricks to help lose weight.

p.s. i would have a picture of myself or an avatar, but i cant figure out how to do it, but I do have pics in my photos.
thanks!