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Fireworks!  The whole neighborhood is so noisy :-)  Love it!

Today's weight = 155.8, the scale finally budged.  I'm so confused though.  A lot of people tell me that I should be done losing, that I don't need to be any smaller.  I set a goal of 145 and I really think I want to reach it at some point.  I'm happy with my weight as long as I am dressed.  All the excess skin in a sight to see and still makes me feel really fat. 

Although it is nice just eating to maintain.  I do weigh every morning and 90% of the time make the right food choices.  But it is nice eating more like a normal person instead of a person on a diet.  For instance, we were garage sale-ing today and there was a sidewalk stand set up as a bake sale to support the troops.  Yummy brownies and cookies!  Bought some, ate some and totally enjoyed the heck out of them.  The difference now is that I didn't wolf down multiple brownies and cookies.  I ate one small brownie and a few hours later I had one small cookie.  I can't believe I'm able to do that without thinking about it or totally craving more and mentally reprimanding myself to not eat it.  I never feel deprived and that's the best part!

I read something about this the other day and I do think it's true.  If I tell myself I'm at maintenance, I might start slacking.  If I continue to weigh every day and have in mind reaching my goal of 145, it will keep me mentally in check.

Shirt size = small

A few of us bandsters had lunch on Saturday and then went shopping.  We were at American Eagle (great sale) and I tried on a shirt in a medium, just a little baggy so I tried on a small.  It fit!  Two different shirts, both in size small and they both fit.  I only recently started buying mediums and now I can fit in smalls.  Wow!  Never thought that would happen.  When I go down a size I always think it's just the manufacturer and they way they cut it.  But I also went to Kohls and found an awesome shirt on sale also in a small.  I'm still buying pants in an 8.  I don't want to try a 6 yet and be bummed when they don't fit.  Oh, the mind games that go with weight loss.

I went to Meridian, Idaho last week for a work meeting.  Apparently I was invited to be the surprise guest.  There are a lot of new managers I have never met in person yet.  It was fun to see everyone and the meeting was great.  My boss, the owner, kept telling everyone how much weight I've lost.  I do like the attention and I do receive more respect now.  If I think too much of it, it does irritate me that I still have the same brain but because I've lost a significant amount of weight I'm somehow more valuable.  Tuesday night was a dinner and I have to say I was really nervous to eat in front of everyone.  I was afraid that because of the flight and the stress I was putting on myself that I would be too tight and possibly get stuck.  But I had some hot coffee before dinner and everything worked out great.  I had the best Lobster Bisque ever!  I ordered a crab and avocado salad thinking it would be nice and small.......it came out and was HUGE!  What I ate of it was so incredible though.

Or was that the little piece of cake I just ate?

I am now at 156.6, less that 12 pounds to goal.  I really can't believe it!  And I just updated my ticker and saw that I'm only 2 bmi points from being "normal" weight.  I've already lost over 19 bmi points since I started.

My daughter's graduation was this last weekend and we had a ton of food and a ton of people at our house.  I think the stress of it all kept me from eating too much and I was always busy and didn't have much time to eat.  My house is so quiet tonight I just don't know what to do!

This morning the scale said 158.6!

It helps that my daughter is graduating next week and we've been getting the house together for all the company.  We have rearranged a few rooms and cleaned out a lot of what we had in storage.  It's time to purge!

What's not helping is allergies.  It is helping the weight loss but what a horrible way to do it.  I get so congested by the evening that I can barely eat anything for dinner.  I try, get a few bites in and then have to quit.  Not fun!  I bought some dissolvable allergy tablets so I'll give that a try and see if it helps.  I sure hope so!

Wow!  Just can't believe that I've dropped into the 150's.  When I first set my weight loss goal of 145 I picked it because it was the top weight for being "normal".  I thought it was wishful thinking to make it to 145 though.  124 pounds is a lot to lose, But hey!  If things keep going like they are, there might come a day when I actually do see 145 on the scale.  I remain very mindful of the protien requirements and always eat protien first, but I'm not actively trying to lose more weight.  If it happens, it happens and I can't believe it's happening because lately I've indulged in a bit of chocolate cake and a few peanut butter oreos.  Yummy!

On a side note, only one more week of school for Kristyna............then graduation!!!!  I'm so excited for her!  We have a lot of family coming in for it and I can't wait to see them all.  Especially since my sister moved to North Dakota, I miss her. 

Kristyna graduating makes me feel old!  Where did the time go?  Thank goodness we have Austin just starting in school so I won't have to deal with the "empty-nest" for a long time.  But I know it's still going to be so sad when she leaves for college in the fall.